Hi everyone,
I’ve just joined so I can talk about this because I am worried sick. I had hpv on my first smear (no idea if it was high risk) but then went back for a smear one year later and have high risk hpv and borderline changes in squamous cells. I’ve done the stupid thing of googling it. I already have severe health anxiety so I physically can’t help myself googling everything as I’m trying to look for reassurance and I can’t stop until I find it. I have my colposcopy tomorrow and I’m so scared about the results. I’m scared that they will find something bad. I’ve seen people talking about hpv and abnormal changes but I’ve not seen many about high risk hpv and the only things I’ve read online about high risk and abnormal smear does not help me whatsoever. I just want reassurance as I’m making myself physically ill with anxiety and panic and I can’t stop crying.