Morning lovelies!! 

sorry Ive been slow to respond. 
oh TM1 Im sorry to hear your achey, the weather this time lf year surely doesn't help either. How did you find radio therapy? Ive heard that can really cause quite intense exhaustion, have you got a nice amount of time off for Christmas?

oh girls yesterday annoyed me a bit. So headed off to chemo for 2pm, there was a delay so didnt get seen till 3:10ish. They flush my picc sort my dressings and 20mins goes by and nothings started. About 10mins after this a lady walks up to me looking incredibly nervous and said “Ive not got good news Im afraid, the pharmacy was given the instruction but did not make up the EC. We are too short staffed to do this now so you will have to come back tomorrow” followed by “they feel awful”. Yup me too pharmacy lol!! In the end I managed to atleast get my Zomenta infusion done so it wasnt a complete waste of time but its so frustrating as it pushes everything back another day now. I find out today if they will still let me go ahead with treatment on the 1st now or if I have to rebook everything again today. Just praying this doesnt push my strong side effects days into Christmas day as my son has been so worried. 

If I go a bit rubbish after today for a while and dont get a chance -

I genuinely cant thank you enough for spotting this chat and responding, its made such a massive difference and Ive not felt as alone. Its wild to go back to the start of it sometimes and see how far we have come.

Il be thinking of you all. Hope you all have amazing Christmases and New Years xxxx

 TM1  I hope they can help with the aching and fatigue! That's not good at all. 

 Rambleon88  oh no! I hope there are no issues today and you will recover sufficiently to enjoy Christmas Day.

I was waiting in the chair for an hour at my last cycle before I was seen and even had my obs done. But it did go ahead as planned. I hope thay this doesn't happen on Christmas Eve! I've got a 2.15pm appointment. 

Thank you all for your support in the last few months. It has helped me a lot. I hope you have a good festive period with your families, irrespective of everything else. Xx

 RedRuth84 Rambleon88 morning lovelies...I'm so thankful for your support as well, certainly got me through some dark days that's for sure. Yes radiotherapy is exhausting, daily for 5 days, then it hits you, I'm still struggling with tiredness and aches, omg...even my hands hurt, blaming that on keyboard work at the office, it's so bloody busy....looking forward to the Xmas break really. Finish xmas eve at lunch time and back 2nd Jan....you are both doing so well and I pray you get through your treatments and not get messed about...every day is so important for you...take it easy over Xmas, take it easy and stay strong. We've got plenty Xmases to look forward to....love and festive wishes ladies xxxx

I'm glad you are having a break from treatment TM1   Radiotherapy does sound exhausting. That's why I've said we will do fake Christmas with our 3 sets of family and friends after I've got over the Radiotherapy (much to the mother in law's disgust). 

I'm off for cycle 5 of 6 shortly. Had a bit of a shock yesterday when the oncologist told me my tumour markers were slightly raised following Friday's blood test. She had me go again yesterday for a further blood test. But she said its unlikely to change much over 4 days.  She said there could be any number of reasons for the slight increase, but because it's been noted we have to keep an eye on it.  I'll ask when I go later what the trend was before. 

@Rambleon88  I hope you are feeling better after your last cycle now and can enjoy your Christmas with your family. 

Have a lovely festive period both!! Xxx

Hi,I can relate to you so much,I have litually had mammograms and scans and biopsies a week ago,my head is litually everywhere,they said so much to me,indicating how concerned they were over the lump,I am in bits but trying to stay strong for my 2 children. I don't get my results until 23rd Jan,and it just feels like a life time. I too feel like they already know the outcome,and I will go to pieces if they are right, like yourself am feeling lost,am empty inside and can't even think straight. Fingers crossed you get a good outcome. Suzanne x

Oh Suzanne, if I could give you a big hug I would, you’re at one of the worst points in this process. I know its so much easier said than done but try and stay positive. Many biopsies are negative and hopefully yours will be but if it does end up being a concern then finding it is the first step towards treatment and getting better. You really are at one of the hardest points in this as the not knowing is so difficult to process :-( I felt like I was in complete free fall. 

Im now the other side of surgery and almost half way through adjuvant chemo, as I was quite young to be diagnosed my onco wanted to take a belts and braces approach. The people here on this forum are phenomenal and have been such a support. I know it may not feel like it right now but your not alone. Xxxx

Hi Suzanne, I'm so sorry you are going through this, and at this time of year too. The waiting for the results are horrid. As Rambleon88 says, it is possibly the worst time through all of this. My heart really goes out to you. 

Try and put this all to one side for now and focus on you and your children. Do normal things. That really helped me take my mind off it. Keeping a positive attitude is important. Studies have shown that positive mental attitude helps recovery.  We are all here for you. X

Thank you for your kind words,they really mean so much,its just nice to talk to someone whose not in the family,as they are all fussing around me and its just nit helping,even though I know they mean we'll. Hopefully once I get my outcome whatever it maybe I can focus that but more. Suzanne x

Thank so much for your lovely words,it has been a hard one to take esp on top of Xmas. It's got to be the worst thing I have ever been through if am honest,it's just so mentally and emotionally draining,when it consumes your mind,but your trying to be happy and jolly for the kids, I have been doing abut of meditating and listening to mindfulness podcasts,which have been very uplifting even for just a short while. Thank you again Suzanne x