Hi hun, now I'm at home I'm OK, been a long day and been yawning like Bagpuss this afternoon lol. Your right it is still raw and all very new to us all. Going to a Cancer hospital was hard to, seeing everyone at their different stages...gosh you have got a lot going on, be lovely when the new kitchen is finished hun, oooohhh wish I could revamp mine, I've got a list of wha needs doing lol. I know what you mean about every ache or pain, it's like what's that, then you have to remind yourself we still just out of surgery and it's repairing now. My boyfriend keeps reminding me I've done the worse bit...I did spot the moving forward booklet today, annoyed with myself I didn't pick it up. I've got that Maggie's appointment on Thursday so maybe they will have one. Nurse today said it was great that I'm going as they get company's dropping off different moisturiser and skin cream and they hand it out so ill get a goody bag she said. I know it's a means to an end and that's what I'll have to focus on....xxx

Aww thanks lovely will definitely look into that as well. Sorry to hear about your hair loss so quickly. You sound quite strong and took charge of it, which is fantastic. Good luck for Wednesday, we've got this indeed and thank you all for the support it means so much...have a relaxing evening xx

OMG get all the goody bags you can hon! Ive heard this too about companies giving away products and lord knows we have all been/going through it so if there is a freebie silver lining to be found girls we have to lasso it!!

Your exactly right hon, its a means to an end and as horrible as it all is as far as treatment goes your on the home stretch now and you have done so well :-)!! Xxx

You've made me proper giggle hun. Bless ya sweetheart and I'll definitely grab a bag, hugs xxx :-) 

Oh hon, how are you feeling now after cycle 1? Sending you a big hug, it really sucks not trusting our bodies right now. There is no innocent ache or pain anymore as my mind wanders to the “OMG but what if!?”. My right boob actually started aching so I emailed my bcn like “so I know left boob stole the show but just want to double check they took a real good look at righty because I just don't trust her!”.

Hope your holding up okay with wigs and caps. Did you go for a wig like your own hair or trying something new? Ive got 2 blondes and a brown and may get myself something funky as I figure why the heck not! 

Sending lots of love and hugs to you both ladies xxx

Hey lovely, how's your husband? Hope your feeling OK in yourself to. Xxx

I coped with Cycle 1 better than I expected except for the neutropenia.  Due to this they are dropping the dose of the E part of the EC this time. 

I went for one the same colour as my hair but a bit longer as the shorter style looked silly. I wore it for an hour yesterday and was glad to get it off to be honest. I'd had my hair clippered and didn't want to do the school run like that so I took the wig to the hairdresser and then on the school run. I'll just have to get used to it I think. 

When do you start chemo? Xx

so glad its going well so far hon. If your anything like me it just hits you every now and again like “My god this is real and actually happening!” 
we will get used to it I think hon and before we know it our own hair will be back! I totally relate to the school run side of it. Two of the mums down the school knows whats happening with me but thats it. How are you finding having clipped hair? Im tempted to clip mine before it has a chance to fall out. 

I have me pre-checks on the 29th and chemo on the 31st! Its wild how fast the turn around for everything has been but Im really grateful for it. Im doing dose dense so every two weeks 4 x EC and 4 x Taxol. Im not going to lie I am scared but I just keep telling myself that the only way past all of this is by going through it xxxx

It's definitely chilly with clipped hair.  But it's much better than finding the long strands coming out.  It was getting matted too. So it was definitely the right choice. The first clump came out Friday evening. Then more over the weekend. But still overall there was good coverage as I'd clipped it up all weekend. The clumps were coming out from underneath. But it's a relief now as I'm not so worried about it. And yes it will grow back! This is just temporary. And it gives us the best chance of remaining cancer free. 

Your regime is a little different to mine. I am 3 x EC and 3x Docetaxel every 3 weeks. Good luck with your first cycle. Remember to paint your nails (fingers and toes) with very dark colours the day before and keep it on for 3 days afterwards. Then 2 days with only nail strengthening paint. Then repeat. UV light affects the nails while on chemo. I signed up for a Breast Cancer Now webinar on nail care. Xx