I just can’t get out of my head the thought that I might not be around to see my chns next birthday n awful thoughts like that

 Kwoody Thats exactly how I felt, its just a really scary time and whilst there is nothing I can say that may take that fear away right now know it does get easier when you know what you are facing. Take it all one step at a time, day by day. Xxxx

Hi...nothing wrong with talking a lot, better out than in hun, I pray Wednesday comes round quick for you, I know you might not want it to, I was the same BUT the knowing is better than not knowing and only then can you move forward. Pain a little easier at the moment, just took my tablet so hopefully I'll sleep. It's a roller coaster of emotions but we are all here for you lovely. Try and get an early night and get some rest. Let tomorrow take of itself. We are stronger than we think even though inside your screaming, I was like that. Hope you're partner pulls through to. Xx

Hi hun, got a friend request from a Paul5, I've had to remove, it was clear it wasn't for me, asking if I was a nurse and saying they couldn't sleep and saying I sound like a really nice person and asking twice where I was from....gave me the creeps, just watch out...hope you're OK hun. I'm knackered after being in work. Think I'll find out this week what tablets I'll be on as letter appeared on my app to my doctor and I get copied in....I'll let you know.. xx

Oh dear thank you lovely will do!! Yes as much as I hope this person is okay you have to follow your intuition!! How are you feeling now lovely has the pain eased up at all? I saw these little mini heatpacks for gloves in my local Lidils and thought of you and how something like that could help with nerve pain! Yes keep me posted and let me know how you get on with your docs!
I nipped to my GPs today and it set me off a little bit. Ive been congested for a while so wanted to get it checked before chemo encase its a sinus infection and Im just struggling to trust my body again at the moment, the littlest ache or twinge makes me nervous. My GP was incredibly kind and feels its just a post nasal drip but wanted to talk to me about BC, how she couldn’t believe I had it and how the age of screening needs to change. Just set me off then, Im stoic until someone shows me sympathy then Im blubbing! Xxxx

Your exactly same as me hun, someone mentions BC and I'm in flipping tears....what a pair we are....oooohhh good idea about heat pads. I'll keep an eye out, pain not too bad today so hopefully it's starting to ease. In fact I'm just about to set off for a walk with my dog, first in ages for me....I'll be more knackered lol xxx 

:-D honestly I walked in like “Yes Im fine how are you?” And as soon as she showed me the smallest amount of sympathy Im there like here comes the water works!! They looked fab hon check them out, Im sure amazon sell them to but they looked dinky enough to carry around compared to a hot water bottle. Enjoy your walk lovely, its piddling down here so my dogs are sprawled on my sofa xxx

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Aww thanks sweet, had a lovely power walk, it's a mild enough evening here, I had too many layers on so was sweating when I got in. He's curled up now on sofa lol. Xxx

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I've got an appointment in a week's time. Feeling a bit calmer. I think I've made my boob sore from pressing hoping it's gone away. I've seen my referral. The doctor has said there were two axillary lumps as well which I had brushed off in my head as I hadn't noticed them myself until shown and I'm still young enough for my breasts to be a bit lumpy at times. I feel a bit silly really. 60-80% are benign. It's just reminded me how important it is to stay healthy and put it in my head how much my kids need me.

Hiya, aww glad your feeling a bit calmer hun, and now you've got your appointment just try and focus on the day to day stuff until then. Don't feel silly, it's ok, I still can't touch my surgery area as it still feels tender/bumpy and makes me feel funny. I had my flu jab booked so off I went today, I literally broke down when the pharmacist asked if I was all well and healthy! He was so understanding and lovely to me, still gave me an ache of an arm after the jab lol. Stay strong and focused hun, we all here for you. Xx

Hiya, aww glad your feeling a bit calmer hun, and now you've got your appointment just try and focus on the day to day stuff until then. Don't feel silly, it's ok, I still can't touch my surgery area as it still feels tender/bumpy and makes me feel funny. I had my flu jab booked so off I went today, I literally broke down when the pharmacist asked if I was all well and healthy! He was so understanding and lovely to me, still gave me an ache of an arm after the jab lol. Stay strong and focused hun, we all here for you. Xx