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Waiting on breast biopsy results - heads a mess

Rambleon88
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Hello everyone.

Ive never really posted on anything like this before but I just feel so lost and scared right now I thought Id see if there is anyone else out there feeling the same. 
Im 36, beautiful son and hubby. Couple of weeks ago was doing my fake tan, noticed just the slightest of dips in my left breast (bottom outer corner). I was due on my cycle so left it a few days encase it was something related and when it didnt go I made an appointment with my GP. They couldn't feel anything but made a referral to the breast clinic based on asymmetrical breasts. 
So I head to the clinic, consultant has a feel and agrees on the dip and can feel a lump underneath it. This then leads them to book me in as urgent for the following day but for a biopsy, mammograms and so on. So I have the mammograms done, they take multiple images. Wait again to head into the consultation room with 2 student nurses, the consultant, a Ultrasound tech and a nurse. They start talking about the lump and identify another one but at this point Im a bit numb and not really taking it all in. I have the biopsies done and then the consultant speaks to me, here is where Im upset at myself as I cant remember the exact wording (my head was and is a mess) but something along the lines of “Concerned” or “Suspecting” malignancy. It was all so fast though. I had titanium chips popped in over the two lumps tested then sent back out for another mammogram to confirm their placement and booking me in for an MRI. During the last mammogram I felt so stupid, I was almost literally frozen as every muscle was so tense and I just couldn't stop trembling. The poor technician was trying to get me to relax but I just couldn’t 
I feel so lost, so scared and to be honest completely blindsided and I don't know if Im just being a big baby or if this is a normal reaction to it all. Has anyone experienced something similar and its come back as benign? Im praying it comes back benign but their reaction and way they are speaking has made me feel like they already know it’s cancer. Then I spiral thinking oh god what if its spread already? And the littlest pain anywhere is making me so paranoid.
Im so grateful to my GP and hospital for moving so quickly, the other half just feels terrified. 
Sorry for the long rambly post and thank you for reading, I just feel like Im free falling right now x

  • Offline in reply to TM1

    Hope today went well lovely, been thinking of you xxx

  • Offline in reply to Rambleon88

    Hi hun, aww thank you. Well all good, operation was a success and lymph nodes completely clear. Had a blood test so they can decide which tablet they'll give me for next 5 years, then I'll get a referral from the Christie for radiotherapy, so just to get through hun. Cried a lot, think it was happy and relieved tears. We went for a lovely lunch afterwards so been a nice afternoon since going to hospital. Hope you're OK to. Xxx

  • Offline in reply to TM1

    I'm so happy for you! That's really good news! Hopefully the radiotherapy will be booked in quickly and you'll be done with active hospital treatment really soon. Xxz

  • Offline in reply to TM1

    Im so so happy for you!!! Thats excellent news!! Im so glad your lymph nodes were clear too!  Sending massive digital hugs to you :-) xxxxxx 

  • Offline in reply to Rambleon88

    Thank you both so much, couldn't have got through without talking to you both, hopefully I'll hear soon. I'm absolutely shattered, have a lovely weekend xxxx

  • Offline in reply to TM1

    Hi TM1,

    This is great news. I'm sure that you feel really relieved that all was clear and now you can move on to the treatment stage. Happy tears are a big improvement on scared tears! I am so glad to hear that you had  a lovely lunch after your visit and that you enjoyed your afternoon since.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Offline in reply to Jolamine

    Morning Jolamine, aww thank you so much, appreciate it. Yes relieved and so glad it was good news. Still a bit anxious about it all, just have to wait now for appointment coming through. I'll hopefully feel better in myself when that's over with and can move forward. How are you? Xxx

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    Hi everyone I get my biopsy results on Weds and am absolutely terrified reading your messages has helped some tho. My radiologist said she was pretty sure it was bc but that my lymph nodes appeared clear on ultrasound xxx

  • Offline in reply to Kwoody

    Hello  

    Im so sorry your going through this lovely, it sucks, your in one of the tougher parts right now and Im sending you a massive digital hug. 

    Hopefully its not BC but if it is know that as terrifying as this is right now you have absolutely done the right thing in getting it checked!!

    Have they given you a idea when to expect your biopsy results? Xxxx

  • Offline in reply to Rambleon88

    I get the results on Weds. the radiologist seemed certain it was bc so that’s what I’m expecting to hear. I feel like my whole world has stopped while everyone else’s is carrying on xxx

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