Remember you can deal with what you know. Sending strength x

Thank you xxxx

Sorry think I'm behind with chats at the moment trying to catch up xxx

Oh lovely, sending massive digital hugs to you, the whole thing is really *** and traumatic. All of us have just been thrown into this situation which no-one can ever truly prepare for. Ive been well teary today too. Its a rocky road we are all on but we will get there. Weirdly I was getting teary talking about the mastectomy to my nurse and the surgeon but mainly out of just shock if that makes sense. A month ago I wouldn't have dreamed Id be sat in a breast cancer clinic talking about removing my boob but there I was talking about just that. Hope you have a restful weekend hon, all of the adrenaline and worry is exhausting xxxx

It is draining you are so right. Keep strong hun, have a lovely weekend yourself....I'm still yawning my head off....xxxx

Hello everyone! 

hope you all had a lovely weekend.

Just had my HER2 results and their negative! I have a pre-op assessment over the phone tomorrow afternoon then bloods done this Wednesday with surgery penciled for either the 4th or the 18th xxx

Aww that's great news hun....pre-op is straight forward and bloods quite quick. Weekend was good.....hope you're feeling better in yourself xxxx

That's good news at least. And they do seem to  be organised. I hope it does go ahead on 4th. 

I've chased the results again. I'm really frustrated that I have to keep chasing them! I want to book a holiday and now at I'm at the point whereby I will just book it! Xx

That is frustrating for you, can't get why it's taking so long for you. We usually go away in September to, but that's cayboshed now, which has upset me....plus side the postman who comes to work said he missed me about two weeks ago and was hoping I was ok...so I told him and he was nice, he only came back with a bunch of flowers and said stay strong, stay positive and don't cry.....awww I thought that was so lovely xxx

Hello both! 

yes fair play the medical team seem to be moving really quickly. Its just been a lot to process and not going to lie Im bricking it at the thought of surgery but I do feel better now I have steps forward. 

 RedRuth84 oh lovely I was going to message this evening to see if you’d had results. Fingers and toes crossed for you that you’ll be booking your get away asap!! 

 TM1 bless your posties heart thats so lovely!! Its really strange telling people as it just makes the whole thing so much more real. 

xxx

I know was lovely of him. It's one of those when random people who you know but don't know that well or even anyone really when they say Hi, how are, you ok and they have absolutely no idea....I just can't say yay I'm great, when I'm not...if that makes sense....I'd rather be truthful.....this morning went quick, hope the rest of the day at work goes as quick....mind you it's bloody cold today lol xxx

Thank you. They logged onto the system, and it says estimated return date is 2 days. But I suspect that will be 3 as that will be 2 days in US and they'll be 6-8 hours behind. So I'll likely have them by the end of the week. 

 TM1  that was so lovely of your postie!  Hope you are doing OK xx

Thank you. They logged onto the system, and it says estimated return date is 2 days. But I suspect that will be 3 as that will be 2 days in US and they'll be 6-8 hours behind. So I'll likely have them by the end of the week. 

 TM1  that was so lovely of your postie!  Hope you are doing OK xx

Morning Redruth84, not too bad thank you....only left my flowers at work didn't I, luckily I put them in water...I'll take them home tonight lol....xx

Oh lovely fingers and toes crossed for you!! Let us know how you get on xxx

Just had my pre-ops phone call. Bloody hell it all feels very real now but also about the most surreal *** Ive ever gone through. Got bloods and checks tomorrow morning then its just the count down to surgery I think. TM1 How are you feeling lovely? Your surgery is soon too isnt it? Hope your okay hon xxxx

Hi sweet, not to bad today. Last night was a bit teary and I felt my mood going down hill, just want it over to be honest but I know when operation date is here I'll be a nervous wreck....its a mixture of emotions at the moment.....at my pre op I got weighed and height measured lol....hope bloods go well tomorrow hun xxx

Yeah it does get really real quickly. My husband identified that I was first on the surgery list when I went in for the op and that was such a huge relief!! I wasn't waiting around. There were 3 on the surgeon's list that day and my op took over 2 and a half hours. I would have been a mess waiting all that time if I wasn't first. But everyone is different. 

Hope it goes well for both of you. 

Still no results here but decided to book the holiday today anyway so this time next work I'll be in Crete - Yay!! Xx

So happy you've booked your holiday, that's brilliant, have a lovely relaxing time, you so deserve it....xxx

 RedRuth84  So glad you’ve booked it hon! Something to look forward to is so important. OMG totally, Im praying Im 1st lol otherwise Im just going to be sat there wide eyed *** my pants! Did you have to stay in over night? Its the drains Im dreading they just look so sore and awkward. 
TM1 awe lovely sending big hugs your way. Its a emotional rollercoaster that none of us expected or ever wanted to be on. Im really up and down but gone a while now without taking diazepam and starting to come to terms a bit better. Same here hon I just want it done and over with but I know the closer I get the more I will be bricking it. Ive never gone under anesthetic before x

Thank you both. The hubby and kids are very excited lol!! 

The drain is sore. But it's only a week. Just be careful not to pull it.  They said I would stay in overnight (because I had small kids) but it was hot and they said I would be more comfy at home and I definitely was glad to be home. Honestly the recovery wasn't as bad as I expected. Xx

Oooohhh glad your off the diazapam that's good to hear. I'm more at grips with it it's the waves of worry that comes over...I'll be bricking it to on day of operation, not been under anesthetic for years, when I had my tonsils out....trying not to think about it at the moment....they told me ill be out same day so hoping I'll be hoping same, first thing and less time to sit and s@myself xxx

Hi TMI,

You are bound to get more up tight as your operation date draws closer. I was really bricking it on both occasions that I went in for surgery, as I have previously stopped breathing on the operating table. Both operations were very straightforward, although I was kept in hospital for 4 days after my double mastectomy. The staff were really excellent. 

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx