Hello,
Apologies in advance I know this will be a long read - but I have no one else to share this with.
About 9 days ago I started randomly bleeding bright red blood from my vagina. This immediately terrified me as I had only just finished my period a week prior. I did have sex with my husband on the Saturday night but didn't have bleeding immediately after or all day Sunday. I was also having pelvic pain and the bleeding never stopped. I googled and of course it is telling me I have CC.
My periods have always been like clockwork. I had a smear test in 2018 following some random spotting episodes which was all clear, and the spotting was due to ovulation. Even that tailed off and I hadn’t spotted between periods for years after!
I have had 2 appointments with 2 different GPs who believe it is nothing but a blip. I begged my GP for tablets to stop the bleeding which he gave so I could get a smear test. Went for that and the nurse immediately said my cervix is ‘eroded’.
After that comment I have now convinced myself I have CC. I have barely slept, eaten or worked these past 9 days and it is severely affecting my mental health. This is purely because if I do have CC I would have to explain to my very religious husband, family and in-laws that I have a disease women get from an STD. Everyone believes I was a virgin before I got married and this would tear my whole world apart. I know for a fact my husband was a virgin before we got married so if I do have something it is deffo my own fault.
i booked a private colposcopy appointment for tomorrow as I can’t take the wait and worry. I feel like I know what is coming and have no way of explaining it to those around me. I am incredibly stressed and alone in all this. I am also fearing I have CC at some late stage as I am only now showing some severe symptoms, and this has been building up inside me for the last nearly 6 years. I am not bleeding right now because of the pills the GP gave me but I know as soon as I stop it will come back.
If you read until this point, thank you, and please keep me in your prayers.
