Vaginal bleeding, ‘eroded’ cervix and pain - terrified I have CC

Hello,

Apologies in advance I know this will be a long read - but I have no one else to share this with.

About 9 days ago I started randomly bleeding bright red blood from my vagina. This immediately terrified me as I had only just finished my period a week prior. I did have sex with my husband on the Saturday night but didn't have bleeding immediately after or all day Sunday. I was also having pelvic pain and the bleeding never stopped. I googled and of course it is telling me I have CC. 

My periods have always been like clockwork. I had a smear test in 2018 following some random spotting episodes which was all clear, and the spotting was due to ovulation. Even that tailed off and I hadn’t spotted between periods for years after! 

I have had 2 appointments with 2 different GPs who believe it is nothing but a blip. I begged my GP for tablets to stop the bleeding which he gave so I could get a smear test. Went for that and the nurse immediately said my cervix is ‘eroded’. 

After that comment I have now convinced myself I have CC. I have barely slept, eaten or worked these past 9 days and it is severely affecting my mental health. This is purely because if I do have CC I would have to explain to my very religious husband, family and in-laws that I have a disease women get from an STD. Everyone believes I was a virgin before I got married and this would tear my whole world apart. I know for a fact my husband was a virgin before we got married so if I do have something it is deffo my own fault.

i booked a private colposcopy appointment for tomorrow as I can’t take the wait and worry. I feel like I know what is coming and have no way of explaining it to those around me. I am incredibly stressed and alone in all this. I am also fearing I have CC at some late stage as I am only now showing some severe symptoms, and this has been building up inside me for the last nearly 6 years. I am not bleeding right now because of the pills the GP gave me but I know as soon as I stop it will come back.

If you read until this point, thank you, and please keep me in your prayers.

  • Hello AlwaysworriedSid,

    I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. It sounds incredibly stressful and isolating. That being said, I'm glad to hear you've taken the step to get a private colposcopy appointment, as having more information can help you understand what's happening and how to proceed.

    As you mentioned you'd be having your appointment today, please stop by and let us know how it went when you find a moment. Remember, you're not alone in this. Many people go through similar experiences, and we're here to listen if you need a chat.

    All the best,

    Renata, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Oh dear, sorry to hear of your troubles. I can see how the bleeding will have worried you, but don't get too ahead of yourself as to get yourself too down over a diagnosis you don't have, and may not have. I know nothing about cervical cancer whatsoever, but CRUK and other reputable sources online say cervical erosion has pretty much nothing to do with cervical cancer at all, and is a manageable and benign condition that typically clears up on it's own, but if not can be treated in other ways. Your symptoms sound very consistent with it! Especially with bleeding and pelvic pain proceeding sex. And this is all info that has popped up online about it. Did the nurse who conducted your smear test and told you about the erosion say anything else at all, re: additional testing required, or immediate worries?

    Try to put your mind at ease tonight before your colposcopy tomorrow, as much as you can anyway, I'm sure it will all be fine. Sending positive energy and good thoughts your way.