I became a smoker around the year 2000. My girlfriend smoked and stupidly I ask for a roll up. Since then I started smoking regularly. Before that I even hated the smell of tobacco smoke. Question why do people smoke when they know the dangers ? I really wish I never smoked I have deep regret that I smoke and I may have cancer. I stopped smoking 3 years ago for 6 weeks I was mentally unwell due to drug Rispidone and I got very sick mentally never recovered I believe drug caused brain damage no more joy or enthusiasm or motivation. I had no smoking symptoms then. As soon as I came out got my freedom I acted wild started smoking immediately due to no freedom. First symptoms I got about a year later was a small round lump in my throat near tonsil. Year later it grows long about 1 cm long narrow and same side ear is effected. Them later on I get shoulder pain and fingers numb. I told my doctor it could be lung cancer. He said if your hear in 6 months it's not cancer not helping me. Now I have saw chest spine pain rib pain and sore throat and chest. Last 12 days extreme fatigue more than usual and poor memory and confusion and depre