I became a smoker around the year 2000.  My girlfriend smoked and stupidly I ask for a roll up.   Since then I started smoking regularly.   Before that I even hated the smell of tobacco smoke.  Question why do people smoke when they know the dangers ?  I really wish I never smoked I have deep regret that I smoke and I may have cancer.  I stopped smoking 3 years ago for 6 weeks I was mentally unwell due to drug Rispidone and I got very sick mentally never recovered I believe drug caused brain damage no more joy or enthusiasm or motivation.   I had no smoking symptoms then.  As soon as I came out got my freedom I acted wild started smoking immediately due to no freedom.  First symptoms I got about a year later was a small round lump in my throat near tonsil.  Year later it grows long about 1 cm long narrow and same side ear is effected.  Them later on I get shoulder pain and fingers numb.  I told my doctor it could be lung cancer.  He said if your hear in 6 months it's not cancer not helping me.  Now I have saw chest spine pain rib pain and sore throat and chest.  Last 12 days extreme fatigue more than usual and poor memory and confusion and depre