I feel the same. It is a horrible emotional rollercoaster. I have been having reflexology which helps. I am waiting for the result of the MDT and treatment plan for possible kidney cancer. I hope you get some results soon ?

I can understand this. I am awaiting a diagnosis and it feels like some of the emotions are too big to contain. I’d say - don’t be too hard on yourself. If you recognise past mistakes that’s a huge step towards reconciliation. Maybe speak to someone who can listen in a non-judgemental way. Wishing you all the best for a positive outcome in all senses & peace of mind. 

Thank you.   Good luck 

Thank you.   Good luck

Dear Mandy. Let us know how you get on x

Thank you, take care 

Mine is tomorrow

Short answer  -  YES. Not always easy face-to-face. I have left a letter to my children apologising for my failings and simply asking that they remember me with some fondness if they can.

Good luck.

Dave