Hi Hariett, 

You are certainly not selfish or silly; sometimes fear paralyses us and it seems like this is what happened here. I would strongly recommend you ring back the hospital and arrange that important colonoscopy. I know it's really hard to do but if you have been referred for a colonoscopy it doesn't necessarily mean you have bowel cancer; there are so many other conditions that can be detected via the colonoscopy and it will be an excellent tool to determine what is causing your issues and to treat these too if needed. 

I am sure others here will have felt like you before wanting to make it all go away and disappear by not turning up to tests or scans but sadly this will resolve nothing and will only cause unnecessary delays in getting a diagnosis. I think you need to be really brave and go and attend this colonoscopy.

I am keeping everything crossed for you that it all turns out to be nothing of concern and that the procedure goes smoothly for you. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

HI, yes I know I must have it done, I will ring the hospital in the morning,I just don't want to be told any bad news ......

I know it's really hard and nerve-racking; I know I would feel just the same as you but fingers crossed it will turn out to be nothing too concerning as there are so many conditions other than bowel cancer that can be detected via the colonoscopy. Well done for ringing them tomorrow morning - it takes courage but it's so important so you can get to the bottom of what is causing your symptoms. 

Everything tightly crossed for you,

Lucie

I know it's really hard and nerve-racking; I know I would feel just the same as you but fingers crossed it will turn out to be nothing too concerning as there are so many conditions other than bowel cancer that can be detected via the colonoscopy. Well done for ringing them tomorrow morning - it takes courage but it's so important so you can get to the bottom of what is causing your symptoms. 

Everything tightly crossed for you,

Lucie