Oh no.. you'll never be butting in! And please don't apologise, Vicki! And advice and chat is completely welcomed and much appreciated, so thank you so much. That's very reassuring to hear, regarding private clinics. I have decided id rather make do with what money i have, no matter how little, if it means my brain can relax with some answers from testing and consultants. That to me, is priceless... It has been tricky to navigate online, making sure I'm contracting the correct people for the relevant testing. I too, am thinking due to increased NHS waiting times, that private clinic are also getting more enquiries. 

Take time to breathe and stay calm and be kind to yourself. 

Please stay in touch. Hugs xx

you are right Vickie, in the old days you could get into private the same week, now they are operating at around 3-4 week wait as everyone is going to them as can’t be seen on the NHs. It’s a scary old time. I’m going to have to use a credit card but I can’t wait like this. Not having a good morning as I have this weird internal itching in the same boob if I lean on it or put any pressure on it. Can only think it’s the worst at the moment as it’s clearly not normal. :(

I’ve calculated what I can afford and then if it needs to go to further tests like biopsy then the credit card will make an appearance for me too. 
I was actually offered a same day appt when I called them last Wednesday but it put even more fear into me and I turned it down stupidly. I’m lucky I have a private hospital near me that has 4 breast specialists. 
I hear you about not having a good morning because it hurts(might be all my poking to see if I can feel exactly how big it is and what it feels like, because clearly dr Google has told me what to look for).. every new pain and ache sets me spiralling too as my mind goes into overdrive. Snapped at everyone so far this morning and I don’t mean to  
tomorrow is going to be a long day until my appt at 3:40pm, hopefully work will help keep me busy

x

Evening all,

Quick update..i received a letter via email re my hospital (NHS) appointment..not until March 20th. Ill be a shell of a woman by then. Barely coping now. Whilst Im extremely grateful they've acted so quickly, im also more anxious now as ive found more lumps...they keep appearing and they're definitely lumps. Some painful, some not- queue more worry... I shall have to go to work at school tomorrow and so can't have my phone on but the minute I can, ill be calling every private hospital I can. 

Thinking of you for tomorrow , Vicki and hoping tye day passes quickly so you can hopefully get some answers.

Xx

Goodness Dannii that’s a long way off! Do you mind me asking where you are in the country, I’m in Herts and wondering how long the wait is around here, I’m guessing around 6 weeks. I’m so glad I kept my private appointment on the 13th

So sorry you’ve found more lumps too. Hopefully this means it’s more likely to be fibroadenoma

really hope you find a private appointment tomorrow x

Hi KitKat..i meant to send this to you much earlier, Im so sorry. Very, very sorry to hear of the news you received about your breast cancer. Please just know you can reach out to us all on here and you'll never be alone. Im praying you have the most amazing support to help you get through this fight! At last you have some answers and now you can fight it. Sending warm thoughts to you. 

Dannii xx

Hi Bubbles,

I hope you're managing ok tonight. Im in Leeds. Tbh i was shocked it wasnt sooner. Ive been reading up on Fibroadenoma and all of it..cysts..lumps...all of it seems to read all the same..painful, not painful, oval, round, irregular, hard, soft... My mind has taken me to the worst possible outcome of course. This is going to eat away at me if i can't find a private clinic very soon. The NHS appointment was actually sooner than one private healthcare provider in Leeds, where I could look online for availability. All the other providers appear to be a phonecall booking system. 

Hugs x

Real *** day today. Just overwhelmed with the whole thing. I had a traumatic time in Dec with mum. She had a breast scare and thank god biopsy come back benign. I’m holding on this as I was beside myself back then and everything turned out fine. 

im holding on in there just about thank you bubbles. Hope your coping ok. 

Danni that’s such a long wait isn’t it :( get on to them tomorrow. 

Vicki- I hope your appointment goes well. Please let us know how you get on. 

sending love kitkat. You can get through this and we’re all here anytime. 
xx

Totally understand and cannot blame you... My mum passed from ovarian cancer (sorry if repeating myself a lot.. perimenopausal!!) and watching her go through that has been horrific. Our mums are our world aren't they? So December is absolutely bound to be a trigger for you... Let yourself be vulnerable and go with it... It's easy to drive yourself mad with worry and endless anxiety (feel like ive been shaking all day!). Remember you're not alone and take comfort in knowing you have this space  to let rip!! Im so, so pleased your mum is well and was just a scare..try to take that on board as it might be the same for you too. Hold on to that :) 

Hugs xx

Thank you danni. I’m really trying to hold on to that to keep me going. im so sorry to hear about your mum. I can’t comprehend the pain you felt and still probably feel. Since that time I’ve had a fear of loosing loved ones and convinced myself I have something wrong with me. I’ve had multiple tests for other things which were all ok. In this time frame I convinced myself I had all sorts. I went multiple times about my boobs and all examinations were fine. Went again last Thursday and that’s when she mentioned about a thickening. My partner god love him paid for me to have an ultrasound and she said I had a harmless swollen node (I’ve got a viral thing atm) and a small fibroadenoma and still go to clinic. In my head I’ve got something awful that’s spread. I know I sound absolutely ridiculous as I had this scan but I know in my heart they’d have to biopsy to confirm and scared they’ll find something else. Sorry I’m rambling now lol xx