So I posted anonymously on a local woman's community page. I posted about my concerns and a lady who actually runs the clinic reached out. I messaged her and explained my concerns. She was really lovely. She kindly looked at my images from previous scan and basically said she can’t be 100% but she feels reassured by the images I have a fibroadenoma but to possibly expect a biopsy tomorrow as it common practise as I’m 32. I hope it turns out well girls  how is everyone? Xx

So I posted anonymously on a local woman's community page. I posted about my concerns and a lady who actually runs the clinic reached out. I messaged her and explained my concerns. She was really lovely. She kindly looked at my images from previous scan and basically said she can’t be 100% but she feels reassured by the images I have a fibroadenoma but to possibly expect a biopsy tomorrow as it common practise as I’m 32. I hope it turns out well girls  how is everyone? Xx

HI Nhj91,

This all sounds reassuring. I hope that the biopsy tomorrow goes well.

Please let us know how you get on.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank you jolamine. I don’t know why but I can’t stop crying. It’s taking me back to the anxiety of mums biopsy which was horrific whilst we were waiting. I think beside this I’m really mentally unwell at the moment. I keep thinking I’m going to loose everyone around me. Xxx

Hello lovely. Im so pleased this lovely lady has managed to give you some reassurance. Please take in her words and know that we are all here for you... You are stronger than you think and you can do this. Sending hugs xxx

Me again...sorry...please let us know how you get on Tomorrow... I'll be thinking of you, we all will xx

Thank you danni. I’m so happy for you that today went well. The best news

 I’m just constantly crying. I don’t even think it’s just the breast issue I think I’m genuinely mentally unwell at the mo. I can’t get this fear of loosing my family out of my head. Mum had a text from her docs saying they saw a small polyp on her gallbladder that appears benign and will monitor in 6 months. Well my head is telling me what if it changes. Upon reading apparently 95% are benign but of course I’m thinking of the 5%. I’m also giving myself a hard time about being scared about my appointment when my mum was so strong when she was waiting for her breast clinic. I sound nuts I know I do but I feel scared all the time. There was a car crash recently and I had a panic thinking it was my sister and bombarded her with calls and she was absolutely fine. This fear is debilitating. I’m sorry to sound so miserable when you’ve had the most amazing news. Xxx

How amazing was that to find that lady NhJ91! That was fate right there xx

I know!! I was so lucky  Hope your ok bubbles? Xxx

So sorry to hear how difficult it is at the moment. Have you ever spoken to anyone not work through it? I see a lovely psychotherapist and whilst I don’t pretend I’m cured (lol) it does help to off load. I mainly see her as I have adopted children who are very complex and I needed a space to get rid of some stress but we do talk about my health anxiety and ocd too. The intrusive thoughts you get sound like OCD, it might be worth getting a referral, I think you can refer yourself actually, to try and work through your fears around your family but it is very understandable with the stress from your mum. It sounds like from the other lady you spoke to that tomorrow will be positive. I really hope so xx

Currently thinking I have a kidney problem as constantly dehydrated . I’ve kept so busy all day and now it catches up with me, I’m trying so hard to not take this stress to bed at night but I must admit, I’m not getting much else done! X

I’ve been referred to the community mental health now who are calling me on the 18th. Hopefully they will sort some therapy for me. Wow your superwoman! What an amazing thing you do adopting. I’m pleased your getting support to work through stuff.  I must say I agree I think I have ocd too. I’m forever finding something to fixate on and when that ends something else comes up. I get compulsive too with the checking with my health. I silently feel more reassured but the monster in my head can’t help it’s self. I’m sure all Well with your kidneys. It may be that your very anxious and this can cause all sorts of issues with psychical sensations. Are you eating and drinking properly? Xxx