Hello Bubbles,

I can completely relate. I have crippling health anxiety. Currently writing this from my bed as I've tried getting up this afternoon and felt so ill from.the anxiety that i decided my bed is my safe place! Ive recently been given an urgent 2 week referral too. I found a lump in one breast which is very painful but wasnt too worried..at the time! As soon as my doctor felt my other breast and found another lump I didn't know i had, I immediately went into shut down mode! Barely eaten in the three days since. Not even thirsty. I feel frozen with fear and imagining all sorts (hair loss, death etc!). Im already scared if death and now i just feel debilitated and desperate. Ive tried borrowing some money to book privately but ironically, they're all closed at the weekend, which has made me feel worse. My mum died of ovarian cancer but no ine else in my family has Cancer history so im trying to calm down but instead my brain is on overdrive.

Feel so scared and alone. 

Im thinking of you. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. Hugs x

Hi Danni your not alone lovely. I’ve been the same in bed unable to get up. Literally crippled with fear. It’s debilitating isn’t it  I would call them Monday to be asked to go on the cancellation list. I’m going to call back too. Let’s try and help each other get through the wait. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum, the trauma of that won’t help your anxiety either. Sending you so much love xxx

Hello.. reviews were saying that they were rude staff, poor communication, some had attitudes..it ranged really. Ive been told three different things so far about the one stop clinic appointment but im so desperate I feel if I wait any longer, Im going to have a total breakdown. Like you say, the uncertainty is horrific xxx

I get it I really do. I’ve been nearly bricking it tonight and thinking I can’t go and bury my head in the sand. It will just eat away so I’m going to go with the motions at the mo. I feel I’m having a breakdown at the moment to be honest I’ve been like it for a couple of months but things like this naturally make it worse. Deep breaths… we’ve got this xxx

Hello Nhj91,

How are you feeling this morning? I hope you managed some sleep. I woke up and immediately panicked. Felt so sick and shaky that I had to call in sick to work before my appointment this afternoon. Ill be in mine when you have yours but will be thinking of you and hoping for the best possible outcome. Deep breaths... You've got this!

Dannii xx

Hi danni I’m sorry you don’t feel well  all the best for today lovely! Please let me know how you get on. I woke up and immediately was sick. I had a call from the nhs breast unit and they have cancellation tomorrow at 11am so I’m going to that one instead now. It seemed silly to still go today with the appointment tomorrow. I feel really frightened xxx

Hi all. I've been to my appointment, it was DREADFUL again, I'm so glad I had my partner to be with me. The consultant actually said " so you sit in my chair and tell me the plan" because I had a couple of questions, same as my previous experience because im under 40 (37) I'm not deemed high risk so he felt "something" not a lump not normal tissue, so it needs scanned but I now have to wait for an appointment to come through the post within the next 2 weeks. So I'm not better off an highly upset by the experience again. I hope everyone else has a better appointment and positive outcome x 

I’m sorry you’ve had another rubbish experience!! It sounds as he wasn’t compassionate at all. I really hope your next appointment is a better experience for you. It doesn't help you waiting weeks on end for next investigations. Let us know your next one goes. I’m going to my nhs appointment tomorrow now and have cancelled the private one today. I feel really sick xx

I know we should let our minds take over with all these worries but it just felt again as you say 0 compassion for those who have concerns, I didn't go with a lump my breast has completely changed size and shape and I felt because they didn't have a before and after picture I was just made to feel like "what's the problem" we are told to be aware of the signs and symptoms, told to know our normal, told that earlier detection is best. Yet from my expirence today it just feels like unless your boob is falling off don't bother. Sorry for the rant it's just been a bit difficult as you can all imagine, I understand the sick with worry/nerves I was the same  I really wish something could help but fingers crossed your appointment tomorrow is alot better than my expirence and its a positive outcome x 

Oh my goodness... L Water... Ive had doctors ask me before.. so what do YOU think is wrong? What would YOU like me to do? I always remember being completely stumped when doctors/ consultants ask that! I am so very sorry you've been made to feel like that..again! Im very cross for you. I sincerely don't understand why they speak to you like that at such a distressful time. Your age shouldn't even come into it. Im pleased your partner was there and Im sure they brought some comfort to you when you needed it. 

Sending hugs and reach out any time,

Dannii xx 

I really feel for you it’s an awful experience anyway and to be treated like that just makes you feel much worse. Please be kind to yourself, your worries are valid and your doing the right thing getting checked out. Xx

Hello lovely,

Thank you... I've just come on for the first time in three months too, so that's probably not helping nerves and sickness (ive just started HRT for perimenopause). I can totally understand why you're waiting for your NHS appointment tomorrow. You'll save a lot of money and could maybe even keep it by, incase you feel you need to see someone quickly in the future. 

You will be frightened of course! Go with it... Breathing exercises are helpful and stay hydrated.. you have one more night before sime answers. Try your best to keep busy. 

Sending hugs xx

Hello lovely,

Thank you... I've just come on for the first time in three months too, so that's probably not helping nerves and sickness (ive just started HRT for perimenopause). I can totally understand why you're waiting for your NHS appointment tomorrow. You'll save a lot of money and could maybe even keep it by, incase you feel you need to see someone quickly in the future. 

You will be frightened of course! Go with it... Breathing exercises are helpful and stay hydrated.. you have one more night before sime answers. Try your best to keep busy. 

Sending hugs xx

I’m due on Friday and that’s why I think I’m being extra hormonal too. Il be thinking of you today and really hope you get the answers. Be kind to yourself and please keep us updated. I’ve been sat with no telly on for hours so going to put it on to distract myself. We need to remember that 8/10 people that go to the clinic are fine. Look at my mum they biopsied and I was absolutely petrified but it was ok. Look at me the voice of reason when I’ve been crying non stop lol xxx

Hope you’re ok Dannii, it could be the HRT causing blips in the boobs, how long have you been on it? I’m not doing good today and have left to wait but trying to keep busy x

hope you’re ok too NhJ91, so yours is now tomorrow? Try to distract yourself lovely. I keep getting the panic swallow me up but am trying to get on with my day. It doesn’t help with the intrusive thoughts but it does take the time away xx

Hey bubbles how you doing? Yeah I got a call from the clinic saying I can come in tomorrow 11am. I cancelled the private one as it seemed silly paying all that money when I had the nhs one the following day. That way I can have everything done in one day. My guts telling me it will all be ok but my heads telling me the most horrific outcomes. I feel sick to my stomach xx

So glad you are being seen tomorrow. Hang in there, it’s a horrendous feeling isn’t it. I’ve just chased the NHs who said they will call me to be seen by the 7th March and I will have a mammogram the same day but it doesn’t look like they will tell me the results. I’m going to keep my private appointment for now and see what happens on the day. I am the same as you, feel sick to my stomach and have been looking at stupid things online like chemo and just way in front of where I need to focus - whxih is on today

so stressful 

stay in touch xx

Hello Bubbles. Nearly three weeks. Ive been telling myself that but the one i felt first was painful months ago. Back in bed now until my partner picks me up for appointment xx

That's great they told you that, after chasing them up. Im hoping it comes around quickly for you. My mind is another level today xx

They don’t seem to give much notice to they. Reading over a few posts it seems to be the day before, that gives me anxiety too as constantly checking my phone!

Please try not to google. I did this earlier and had a melt down. For my sanity I can’t do it anymore. I have my ultrasound images from the previous place and keep reviewing them but I’m not a professional so need to stop this. I’m a nervous wreck I’m shaking, feel sick. I can’t bear this any longer Xx

I called the breast clinic in floods of tears yesterday and the breast nurse called. She was so lovely and messaged the appointment team for me. I think they realised the extent of my anxiety xx