They didn't give me an appointment date. They just said '2 weeks'.

Xx

How long have you been waiting so far? 

Since Friday x

HI TCP,

This will seem like the longest wait of your life. We all find it a very trying time. If the lumps were benign last year, here's hoping that they'll be again. If it does turn out to be cancer, you'll find that it is all perfectly "doable". I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer and I'm still here14 years on and still leading a busy life. Try to look at this as a blip in the road.

Can you find a pastime to help concentrate your mind on something else, while you're waiting? - I even resorted to doing jigsaws! This was a total waste of time and they didn't need any deep thought, Strangely, they did help, as I was incapable of thinking sensibly about anything at the time.

Any time you have any investigation, it is always helpful to ask when your results will be back. Even if this is only an approximate date, it gives you a date to count down to. 

We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank you, Jolamine, I have been throwing myself into writing funding bids at work - it's impossible to think outside of what you're writing about when you are in them. 

When I'm at home, my partner is pretty good at distracting me by talking about anything and everything. I also hide in a book - Val Mcdermid is the current hiding place.

It comes over me in waves. This morning I was perfectly fine until someone was nice to me then my mind went into over drive and I was catastrophising all over the place.

I try to keep reminding myself of yours and laraj's words: you don't know anything and if you do it's doable.

You are an inspiration. Thank you for your kindness.

Tracey xx

HI Tracey,

It's good to hear that you can lose yourself in your work - for a while at least. Getting lost in a book is also a great distraction. It also sounds as if your partner is being very supportive, which will be a great help.

We often refer to this journey as a giant rollercoaster ride - up one minute and down the next, but you'll get through it.

Jolamine xx

I am fluctuating from wanting to speed up time to wanting to slow it down and run away. Every morning brings sacredness that they might ring and every evening I calm down because i know they won't ring. A roller coaster, as Jolamine says. Torture.

TCP 

hipr you have a good day today xx 

Thank you xx