Hi Lofty,

When I had my ultrasound, mammograms etc, they didn’t give me any indication as to whether they suspected cancer or not. I was just called to make an appointment for the results about ten days later. Having said that, between that phone call and the results, they then booked me in for an MRI, so it was pretty obvious then that it was malignant. 

I really hope that you have a good outcome from your tests. Wishing you lots of love and luck for whatever lies ahead xx

Sorry to hear about your diagnosis GoonerGirl68  I hope things can be sorted for you and you’re feeling ok. Did you receive a call or letter to book in for MRI and how soon after clinic appointment was this? Lay here wide awake at 4am. Xx

Gooner 

yes i understand cause they change Thor minds it’s not fair I understand this too , because once you have a plan you get your mind focused on this , everytine I had a appointment things changed no chemo , chemo  no chemo it’s a rollercoaster, but until they send off your node biopsy at operation I don’t think they no until results come back themselves, but they won’t give chemo unless its absolutely necessary , the day I was told no chemo after my 2 nd operation removing all.nodes in my arm , I had a massive party , try not to worry to much easier said than done I no xx I also demanded the Oncotype DX test as this gives you a score I wasn’t having any chemo without this test but lucky it come back with a low score you can request this test too x 

love Lara xx 

Awww Gooner. It must be so hard to know when you look in the mirror it will be different and no matter what people say it’s how you feel that matters. So much can be done these days though so once things settle for you hopefully you will be able to take comfort in knowing that you are super brave and strong. You’ve got this!!! 

what date is the surgery?

lots of love xxx

Thanks Lofty.

My surgery is on Tuesday 24th. I can’t wait to get it over with, but am dreading it at the same time- if you know what I mean. Obviously I don’t really want it at all! 

Im glad things are looking positive for you xx

I hope you have lots of support around you. WoW Tuesday. I’ll be thinking of you. Your emotions must be all over the place Gooner. Xx

Thank you. It all feels a bit surreal if I’m honest. I’ve had a busy work week but have now finished until I’ve recovered from the surgery. Work has provided some normality but now that’s finished it’s all feeling more scary. 
I’ve been sent 3 lots of flowers by friends in the last couple of days. My lounge is like a florist! It’s all very weird , especially because physically I feel completely normal xx 

Work definitely does provide some normality and hopefully as soon as you’ve had your surgery you will be in a better place to move forward. Take one day at a time. 

sounds like you have some lovely friends. Have you not been run down or picking colds etc up regularly? 
xz

Gooner 

so lovely you had flowers , just wait till you have your op your house will be full mine was like a flower shop so lovely of people thinking of us , but since then I can’t have a fresh flower in my house lol it just reminds me of that time of my life isn’t it strange how things work like that xx hope you have a great weekend do spoil yourself now it’s you time for next few weeks lovely xx 

Yes- usually I can’t wait to get away from work, but I’ve preferred to be there the last week or so. Definitely one day at a time - I find that hard though, as I’m always looking and planning ahead.

Yes- I have some lovely friends that are trying to be supportive. I know it’s hard for people as my diagnosis has been a shock for them and they don’t know what to say.

No- I haven’t had any colds or anything. As for being run down- I often feel run down. It’s the nature of my job and the long hours I work. So if I feel tired or a bit run down, that’s quite normal and I think nothing if it xx

I can’t remember the last time I had so many flowers! It feels a bit odd as I haven’t even had the op, but it’s really lovely that people are thinking of me. 
I’ve got a fairly busy weekend- partly because I need to buy various things like front-fastening clothes etc, which aren’t what I’d usually wear. Trying to get everything sorted at home- cleaning, washing etc done. Strange to think I won’t be doing any of it for a while xx

Yes it’s a strange feeling , but you no what once it’s done you gunna feel so much better and you deffo cope , I was meant to not hoover not do this and that I sat for a day and thought I can’t sit no more and carried on doing everything naughty I no but that’s me I can’t help it I’d wait for hubby to pop out and I’d be cleaning xxx 

Yes it’s a strange feeling , but you no what once it’s done you gunna feel so much better and you deffo cope , I was meant to not hoover not do this and that I sat for a day and thought I can’t sit no more and carried on doing everything naughty I no but that’s me I can’t help it I’d wait for hubby to pop out and I’d be cleaning xxx 

Haha- I’ll see how I feel. I’m definitely not the sort of person who enjoys sitting around xx

Gooner 

you gunna smash it just watch and see xx. 

Fingers crossed xx

Gooner 

when I got to the hospital my operation was 5 pm evening had to be there 2 hours before I treated it like I was going to a spa I put tan on blow dried my hair hated taking my nails off had my nails on for over 20 years. Very bare , my husband dropped me off he was crying I was fine but his emotions were hard for me to cope with , as I find it easier to cope when I’m on my own xxx I feel bad Lookikg back but I was strong he was in bits bless him xx