Hi Lofty,

When I had my ultrasound, mammograms etc, they didn’t give me any indication as to whether they suspected cancer or not. I was just called to make an appointment for the results about ten days later. Having said that, between that phone call and the results, they then booked me in for an MRI, so it was pretty obvious then that it was malignant. 

I really hope that you have a good outcome from your tests. Wishing you lots of love and luck for whatever lies ahead xx

Sorry to hear about your diagnosis GoonerGirl68  I hope things can be sorted for you and you’re feeling ok. Did you receive a call or letter to book in for MRI and how soon after clinic appointment was this? Lay here wide awake at 4am. Xx

Hi Lara,

I am scared how I’m going to feel about my body. Every day I look in the mirror and can’t believe I’m going to not look like this a week from now- not that I’m one to flaunt my body, but you know what I mean! 
I’m scared about all sorts of things to be honest. My friends keep telling me I’m one if the strongest people they know etc etc, but they aren’t seeing the way I’m falling apart. I know I’ll be ok in time, but at the moment I’m worried and scared about everything to do with the surgery and after. 
Yes- it’s a day surgery, which is good I think. Better to be home in my own bed xx

Lofty 

I was just paranoid my best friend was diagnosed and I was in holiday felt like a heaviness in my breast no lump so booked on my private medical for a check felt really well and was assured I had no lumps had a mamo and ultrasound. Could feel the atmosphere in the room change , I asked outright do I have breast cancer and was told there is a area of concern and it looks suspicious jn that area but needed to wait for biopsy results I could not actually believe it I had never felt so well in my life xx 

Gooner 

mtrs I no exactly what you mean my hubby my friends were like you got this you ate strong but deep down like you said I was confused angry scared then next day I’d be ok then next a mess , and yes sane as me I’m 49 I’m not co concerned about low tops ect now but it’s still our womanism and it’s part of us , part of our make up , but we have been unlucky but lucky we have found the monster and getting rid of it , I must say when I woke up after operation I did feel w sense of relief that the cancer was gone xx 

I’m glad you felt like that when you woke up- I hope I feel the same. I’d feel better if I knew there wasn’t going to be any chemo- until then I think I’ll still be anxious xx

Gooner 

yes i understand cause they change Thor minds it’s not fair I understand this too , because once you have a plan you get your mind focused on this , everytine I had a appointment things changed no chemo , chemo  no chemo it’s a rollercoaster, but until they send off your node biopsy at operation I don’t think they no until results come back themselves, but they won’t give chemo unless its absolutely necessary , the day I was told no chemo after my 2 nd operation removing all.nodes in my arm , I had a massive party , try not to worry to much easier said than done I no xx I also demanded the Oncotype DX test as this gives you a score I wasn’t having any chemo without this test but lucky it come back with a low score you can request this test too x 

love Lara xx 

Awww Gooner. It must be so hard to know when you look in the mirror it will be different and no matter what people say it’s how you feel that matters. So much can be done these days though so once things settle for you hopefully you will be able to take comfort in knowing that you are super brave and strong. You’ve got this!!! 

what date is the surgery?

lots of love xxx

Thanks Lofty.

My surgery is on Tuesday 24th. I can’t wait to get it over with, but am dreading it at the same time- if you know what I mean. Obviously I don’t really want it at all! 

Im glad things are looking positive for you xx

I hope you have lots of support around you. WoW Tuesday. I’ll be thinking of you. Your emotions must be all over the place Gooner. Xx

Thank you. It all feels a bit surreal if I’m honest. I’ve had a busy work week but have now finished until I’ve recovered from the surgery. Work has provided some normality but now that’s finished it’s all feeling more scary. 
I’ve been sent 3 lots of flowers by friends in the last couple of days. My lounge is like a florist! It’s all very weird , especially because physically I feel completely normal xx 

Work definitely does provide some normality and hopefully as soon as you’ve had your surgery you will be in a better place to move forward. Take one day at a time. 

sounds like you have some lovely friends. Have you not been run down or picking colds etc up regularly? 
xz

Work definitely does provide some normality and hopefully as soon as you’ve had your surgery you will be in a better place to move forward. Take one day at a time. 

sounds like you have some lovely friends. Have you not been run down or picking colds etc up regularly? 
xz

Yes- usually I can’t wait to get away from work, but I’ve preferred to be there the last week or so. Definitely one day at a time - I find that hard though, as I’m always looking and planning ahead.

Yes- I have some lovely friends that are trying to be supportive. I know it’s hard for people as my diagnosis has been a shock for them and they don’t know what to say.

No- I haven’t had any colds or anything. As for being run down- I often feel run down. It’s the nature of my job and the long hours I work. So if I feel tired or a bit run down, that’s quite normal and I think nothing if it xx