I’ve had my biopsy and I’m in the waiting for results phase. It’s SO HARD! To begin with I was constantly in tears and planning my funeral, but after the initial shock it’s been a little easier.

I’ve been doing a lot of meditation, walking barefoot in the garden, chanting, (Buddhist tendencies) and talking to friends. It’s helping. Keeping busy with the kids, and physically writing down my fears. I also had an appointment with my counsellor. 

I’m also giving myself permission to freak out a bit, but only once the kids are in bed…and the last couple of nights I’ve actually been OK. 

Can you plan in some time for yourself?

I’ve had my biopsy and I’m in the waiting for results phase. It’s SO HARD! To begin with I was constantly in tears and planning my funeral, but after the initial shock it’s been a little easier.

I’ve been doing a lot of meditation, walking barefoot in the garden, chanting, (Buddhist tendencies) and talking to friends. It’s helping. Keeping busy with the kids, and physically writing down my fears. I also had an appointment with my counsellor. 

I’m also giving myself permission to freak out a bit, but only once the kids are in bed…and the last couple of nights I’ve actually been OK. 

Can you plan in some time for yourself?

I truly hope the results are positive news for you! It’s absolutely the worst feeling isn’t it - the unknown, the possible outcomes if the news isn’t happy news. 

I’m pleased you’ve managed to find ways to destress and keep yourself grounded. I am currently flitting between feeling positive and ok about it all to completely freaking out. Luckily I’ve been able to hide the freak out moments from the kids and I have some fantastic friends who are being so supportive through all of it. 

Anxiety is in full swing this morning though as I wait for the scan!

I think that’s just it, the not knowing, if we knew we could plan, you know? I’m keeping everything crossed for you for today! 

Update from my appt - the ‘lump” was actually a swollen milk duct that had then pushed the tissue up and given the impression of a lump. No biopsy required and instructed to wear crop tops for 6-8 weeks to let the swelling go down. Follow up in 2 months just to check it’s all healed. Cried so much with relief and then ate the biggest dinner because I hadn’t really eaten since Saturday! 

I wish you both the best of luck for your appt and results. Please let me know how you get on x

That's amazing news, what a relief!!!!!!! Please tell me you're now sat with a glass of wine?!?! Xxxxx

Haha I don’t drink but I’ve had a very large KFC, tea and cake! 

Even better. Take care lovely x

Fabulous news, so happy for you! 

Hi Kgraham,

This is fantastic news. I'm so happy for you. I'm glad to hear that you celebrated with a large KFC and cake. It's also good that they're bringing you back in 2 months, just to be sure that all has healed.

Don't forget to let us know how that goes.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx