2WW referral today very scared

I have chronic health anxiety. On Saturday. I felt a thickening / lump in right breast. Prodded, poked and googled all weekend. Managed to get a gp appointment this morning. Gp can feel thickening and has referred me to breast clinic. Now my mind is in overdrive, even more so than before. I didn't routinely do checks so terrified that I could have cancer and its been there for ages and spread. I know, I know Dr Google is no good  for anyone. But my health anxiety is so severe. I am 49 and have been taking HRT patches for 2 years now. I asked my GP what they thought and they were very non committal but did say they refer everyone and take no risks. Said they would try and fast track my referral because of my mental health. I am very scared. Just want to reach out to some people 

  • Hi, I'm glad you've got your appointment. Hopefully you get good news and you can enjoy your birthday. I know how you feel the worrying is awful. 

    I had my breast clinic today. She felt the lump straight away and sent me for an ultrasound. They couldn't pick it up on the ultrasound even tho they could feel the lump easily, so I have to go back in 6 weeks time and if the lump is still there she is going to do a biopsy.

    I was hoping I was going to get it over and done with today but now have another 6 week wait I feel really down about it.

    Please let me know how you get on xx

  • That's tough Sophie. I would have expected them to do everything there and then.

    I have a feeling that I know what is going to happen. I just feel that this is it especially as the appointment is on my birthday. 

    Lost over half a stone since the weekend I just can't eat. No problems sleeping as that's a relief from the worry, but as soon as I wake up I am back to square 1. All too much to take. 

    I have started googling treatments to try and prepare myself. But then sometimes feel momentarily hopeful as I don't have any other symptoms at the moment just this lump. 

    On my NHS app the name of the clinic was high risk. I even called them back to ask if that meant I was high risk. They said thats just because the appointment involved radiology. So that's something I suppose. I can imagine the consultant doing a biopsy and saying they are concerned. This anxiety is terrifying x

     

     

  • Yeah I was expecting it all to be done today. I feel the same as you I don't know how I'm going to cope the next 6 weeks and then waiting for results after that. I can't think of anything else.

    It's great you don't have any other symptoms, try and stay positive. Easier said than done I know.

    My referral said for suspected breast cancer and that freaked me out seeing it in writing but apparently they refer all lumps as that.

    My GP was convinced it was a cyst and I think part of me was expecting it to be that today even though I've been imagining the worst, I thought I was just overthinking it. But now I'm thinking if it was a cyst surely they would of seen it on the ultrasound. 

    I know it's tough but just 1 more day to get through then hopefully Friday you have some answers xx

  • Hi good luck at your appointment today, I'll be thinking of you. 

    Happy birthday too xx 

  • Miska 

    happy birthday and hood luck for your appointment send big warm virtual hugs your way 

    love Lara ️

  • Sending love Miska123 xx

    I've been through this last month and was one of the unlucky ones. But for most it's not bad news. I hope you'll be in that not bad news group.

    The good thing is just how lovely everyone is at the clinic, and how smoothly the appointment goes. Mine went half hour with consultant, half hour for 4 mammograms, three quarters of hour for ultrasound when core biopsies were taken under local anaesthetic by radiographer, back to consultant for another half hour.

    The worry and the waiting before and after the appointment  I found just awful.

    Sending you my very best wishes, hugs xx

  • Soph93 so sorry to read they couldn't find lump on ultrasound and you have to go back in 6 weeks. I hope it's actually a good sign, but know the uncertainty during the further waiting will be horrid. Much love xx

  • Hi thanks for your kind words. I'm trying to focus on the fact nothing bad was picked up on the scan and stay positive but I know I'll have good and bad days the next 6 weeks xx