I have already posted before, my appointment is Friday at the clinic. Its been a long 2 weeks. 

I have had ups and downs. I look at my kids and cry. Have moments where I say I am 34, I am too young. But understand Cancer does not discriminate. I understand my lump may be nothing but I am honestly so scared. I know treatments at available but it's this unknown that is killing me. 

I know so many go through this. I just fear if it is cancer Its spread and nothing can be done. So much anxiety going through my head. I just cuddle my baby fearing I won't see her grow up. 

I am sorry to ramble on, but as time draws near I am becoming more scared again and the whole what will be will be attitude is starting to scare me now.