Waiting

I am 32 with 3 small children (7, 5 and 7 months). I have a large lump in my left groin. Went to GP wed and now awaiting urgent referral for an ultrasound. 

 

I'm a nurse and looked after probably hundreds of cancer patients. My mind is running away with me and a little knowledge is a bad thing. I had a rubbish pregnancy and was very ill for a lot of it, now this. 

 

There's a good chance this is all ok but I just want to write and get it all out. I'm tired, I'm scared. My husband is very much of the "no point in worrying until we know if there is something to worry about" which I totally get but my healthcare background is playing tricks on me. 

 

No point to the post, just to go "blah" and get it all out. Thanks for reading ‍♀️

  • Hi Vicky. I am in the waiting game. Blood in my phlegm Tuesday/Wednesday. GP Thursday. X-ray today after work. Very worried but keep telling myself to stay calm.  Easier said than done though eh.  I'm really worried but trying to not show it for my family. My wife is the opposite and worries like mad so I am playing it down. 
    hope everything works out for you. 

  • Hi Scott,

    Urgh it's just crap isn't it?! Worst thing is, with my nursing background I can give 100 reasons why it wouldn't be the big C to someone else yet I can't convince myself! I'm painting on the brave face too. Normal day for my kiddies and husband would just rather not discuss it, hence I'm on here instead

    Hope everything works out for you too. Keeping fingers crossed for you. 

    I just want an appt to come through and know the ball is rolling

  • I'm bottling up until I know more. I've been in the building industry for 25 years so I fear asbestosis or silicosis but who knows. I'm sure everything will turn out fine for you stay strong.