Hi,

Yes the wait was literally killing me in the past 2 weeks I have literally lost 5 kg as I obviously cannot eat or think about something else.

Mine are not painful at all, well I believe but because I had them for so long I never felt any pain but since the big C was suspected I from time to time feel aches but I put it on more on the psychological aspect, the mind is powerful in creating symptoms you know!

I just can't wait to be on Friday and at the same time I am scared of the outcome. But my life will definitely never be the same whatever the result is.

I will definitely let you know but hoping to come back with good news!

I'll be thinking of you and I pray that it's all positive.

After you saying about going private, I contacted my private health provider and I have managed to get in tomorrow at 5:45 at a private hospital (I didn't think they would get me in before my appointment next Wednesday) so I wasn't going to bother but glad you mentioned going private so thank you.

I am actually more of a nervous wreck now as like you, so scared of what the outcome is going to be. I think I am making myself ill from all the worry. Every ounce of my body is in pain and I feel so sick! 
 

I will let you know how my appointment goes xx

Sorry to hear you're waiting for results - did they say how long they could take? It's just unfair isn't it to have to wait with the unknown and your mind goes into overdrive and you just can't help but think the worst all the time. I hope you get them soon and it's a positive outcome. 
 

How did they mis-diagnose you? Was that your GP that just said that? Mine said mine was an infected cyst when I went to see her last month (I have mine under my armpit) and put me on a course of antibiotics which didn't work and after going again on Monday, she said she still thinks cysts but I have two now. 
 

Xx

Hi Lovely,

Don't be silly, you're absolutely justified to be looking for support and info in this chat section as it is   "pre-diagnosis signs and symptoms"

Not everyone on here will have a cancer diagnosis after their tests but most of the sypmtoms that get us referred are shared by us all and the fear at this stage is the same for everyone it seems so it can be a good place to talk about your anxieties and hopefully get some reassurance too. 

I have only ever had cysts on my ovaries ( harmless ) but that was painful and my mother got lots of ( harmless ) breast cysts which I believe were painful. One of my daughters had infected armpit hair folicle ( commonly casued by shaving ) which I think is the same as sebaceous cyst as that involes hair/sweat glands and that was very swollen and painful.

The reason I joined this forum is because I found a large lump a while ago and had a sore breast which stayed though a few period cycles so I saw my GP and although she thought it was normal lumpy breast tissue she sent me for a 2 week referral to the breast clinic. 

The waiting was terrible and I went though a rollercoaster of emotions but from talking to others I found that this is the natural response.

I had a total of 3 mammograms and 2 scans and 4 biopsies were taken on the day, not of the painful lump I was complianing about because that was indeed normal breast nodules , BUT they found something else hiding there a 11mm spiculated mass which had to be biopsied to see if it is anything to worry about.

Again, that is a source of anxiety as I have to wait for the results however I have been trying to keep busy and minimise the negative thinking, it's not easy but I have had CBT therapy in the past for PTSD and using coping strategies that I learned. You can get therapy or use online tools to help with your health anxiety, it's a recognised condition now and you don't have to be a prisoner to it.

Anxiety and fear can spiral out of control if you let it. It is OK to be scared, but don't let it dominate your every waking thought, tell your mind "STOP" when it wanders, prolonged stress does not do anyone any good.

Sometimes you have to ask yourself "what advice would I give to someone in my position?" and then give that advice to yourself and follow it...I can see you've been supporting others so you know what to say to yourself.

I'm saying all of this with the best intentions :love:

We are all stronger than we think.

Hi Mumoftwo,

I'm pleased to hear that you've managed to get an earlier appointment by going private, it is worth doing as it turns out for many of us that the waiting is sometimes the worst thing about it all.

I think the key thing to hold onto for the moment is that your GP has referred you to "rule out", rather than highly suspects cancer.

You will get a thorough examination on Friday and hopefully there will be nothing abnormal but you will certainly be in the best place if further testing is required.

Forget work for now but keep busy, stay off the thoughts rollercoaster and you most definitely need to eat , sleep and keep hydrated so that you can function in the meantime....it will do you no harm at all!

Best of luck, will be thinking of you :love:

Your post just made me well up just because of how lovely you sound and how supportive you are to a total stranger even though you're going through such a worrying time yourself and the agonising wait for results is just mental torture. Have you been waiting long? Also, the spiculated mass, was that found on a mammogram? I hope you're not having to wait too much longer. I suppose if you didn't have the initial lump then this wouldn't of been found so that's a positive look on the situation but I'm hoping it's a positive outcome for you so please keep me updated. 

I know I need to speak to someone regarding my health anxiety as it really is spiralling out of control and I don't want it effecting my children. I have tried to keep it at bay but when a health scare crops up, it just consumes me. 
 

I am going to remain positive and try and shut out the dark thoughts and just breathe and keep calm as I now don't have long to wait for my appointment.

Thank you for being a light in my darkness - it does help talking to people and everyone is so kind on here xx

Hi,

You definitely made the right choice in going private if you can afford it.

At best it will ease your worries and in the worst case scenario which I do hope neither of us would be confronted to the, there will be a point to start.

I will definitely be thinking of you tomorrow and hopefully you will come back with good news, I will be praying for it anyway!

Stay strong  

Hi Plumet,

Thank you for your kind words.

I will try to follow your advice.

I hope you will also get your results soon so we can all hopefully put these worries into our past!

Thank you  

Stay strong too and I will be messaging tomorrow with the outcome. I will also be thinking of you on Friday which isn't too much longer now. 
 

If you feel you need to chat, just message on here, happy to talk xx