I really do not know what to do right now, I am just under 6 weeks pregnant and Thursday got referred by my doctor for a breast ultrasound due to abnormal discharge (black). The breast cancer unit have received the referral but have advised it can take up to 2 weeks to get an appointment.
I am absolutely terrified, I cannot stop shaking, I am trying to hide it from my little boy but have been spending all my time in bed while he is downstairs with my OH to hide that I keep crying.
I am so so scared and the morning (all day sickness) is just making it so much worse.
I am off work at the moment as I planned to get started on clearing the spare room at least and take my son out for day trips during the school holidays but all of that just seem so impossible, the idea of being around anyone just sets me off crying and I have never felt like this.
I am too scared to call anyone in case I miss a call from the clinic for my scan and I haven't even had my booking in appointment with the midwife and so they should be calling soon.
