Hiya I feel ya worry I've just had my appointment through for breast clinic next weds and am now panicking like no other I thought I had dimpling on right breast went doctors she scheme couldn't find no lumps because I was crying and in a mess she sending me breast clinic but she did say I have some lumpy breast tissue so I guess it's for that and peace of mind for myself she said she doesn't think I have cancer which helped me for a bit but now the fear irrational thoughts are all coming thick and fast 

[@Anxiousnelly]‍ how long did you have to wait for your appointment? Have you been to the clinic before? When I went last time they were all lovely. 
anxiety makes things 1000x worse. Any other twinge or pain I just relate to this lump now. I hope your appointment day comes around quickly but I know it can be the longest wait ever! 

Also if u look up stringy it's the same as lumpy which can be cysts or bengin fibrodema apparently quite common in women so I am holding on to the doctor telling me she doesn't think that I have cancer and that just wished I didn't have to go alone 

I was the same. The anxiety built up and built up until I burst and had a full blown panic attack. I'm just not the same person I was and my husband told me to go to the doctors so I finally plucked up the courage to go! They also offered talking therapies which might be something for you if you didn't feel like taking medication? I think if you book an appointment to speak to someone about your anxiety after your breast clinic appointment it may make you feel a bit better? I felt better after getting it all out. I also sat down with my husband and just cried and told him how I was feeling like I just have a sense of doom all the time it's terrible. I think he understands now. 
how are you sleeping? (If your sleeping at all) this doesn't help things does it :(

I think my partner is tired of me as I've been worrying panicking every day for years but never gone doctors I always palm it off through fear of being told yes there's lumps etc he does understand my fears but I think I've drove him crazy lol I do it to my kids aswell that's how bad it has got I make then feel my boobs etc but that is gonna change well I hope I'm gonna show them especially my daughter not to be afraid I only made appointment coz I see dimpling well what I thought was dimpling dont think it was as doctor never said anything I just think having my baby which was a bit of a surprise at 43 has just made me worry more than I did before like if I die he won't have me remember me etc which scares the hell out of I need to be here for all my kids and especially my baby all my other kids are older 21 18 14 

Yes I totally know how you feel about that. Mine is after having a baby too it's alot worse. I also worry about not being round, I worry how they will cope etc. I don't know if you've tried it also but I went and treated myself to a massage and a bit of 'me time' the other week and felt so well after it (for the day haha). I think with your doctor saying she doesn't think it's cancer is a bit of a relief, I think they feel loads of breasts in their time so would have a good idea. mine said she didn't 'think it was anything sinister' so I'm also hanging onto that bit of positivity! 

I dont get time to do a me day if I'm honest so busy between work baby judo football etc plus I don't do massages from strangers weird but thats me lol yeah we just have to hold on but madness so far today since my appointment booked I've seen nothing but cancer this cancer that I feel like it's a omen

Yeah I bet your up the wall. It's so important to just try and find a bit of time though it sounds like you've got so much on. Haha no a massage is not for everyone! It's world cancer day today. All I am thinking is thank god we have the nhs and there's so much research now into breast cancer. Think I might have a little pre-bed whiskey or something to calm me down later haha 

So my appointment is on weds afternoon breast clinic can't take no one with me and my anxiety is building and building I'm trying to remain calm and positive like reminding myself the doctor said she doesn't believe I have cancer no lumps etc but I've been feeling and just feel my whole right breast is lumpy and I've got some  tenderness on the bottom right of breast and have pain in my back same level as boob no constant pain more niggles which I don't know if its my anxiety the way I'm sitting etc I'm just getting so very very scared right now and struggling if I'm honest 

Hi [@Anxiousnelly]‍ sorry im only just replying. I had a bad weekend with anxiety and had a bit of a breakdown. I ended up paying private from my savings and managed to get an last minute today. I saw the breast consultant and had a ultrasound. They could feel the lump but it's just hard fatty tissue. I'm so relieved. They said I need to get measured properly and start wearing a sports bra when I'm picking my daughter up she said that's mainly where the pain is from also hormones etc. 

I hope everything goes okay with your appointment tomorrow. I can totally sympathise how your feeling it's so hard to try and say anything to calm you down because I was the same I was just crying all the time and totally obsessed with feeling my boobs. let me know how to get on x

I'm so glad yours came back clear I'm really hoping I've does but today both my boobs hurt like period but I had my period 4 days ago even tho I came on early I've have flickering pain in armpit but was window cleaning in work do was stretching dunno if that's to do with it and I stupidly googled again and they say ur lynthnodes under ur arm can come up to breast cancer and I'm sure I can feel a couple small soft lumps now and my arm is now sore from prodding and poking  I looked a my boobs tonight and I can still see what I think is dimpling on top and just on under  part of boob so I am now convinced I'm gonna get bad news and the boob feels lumpy all over I'm I'm mess inside if I'm honest 

I was the same with that type of pain too and also made myself sore (still am) also I was convinced I had loads of lymph nodes I could feel but they showed me the ultra sound and the consultant was like no they're absolutely fine!! I was having a major panic at the appointment. I'm if both of them are a bit sore it might be hormonal. Thinking of you. Literally as soon as I came away from the appointment all these 'symptoms' I was getting seemed to ease straight away. Stress and anxiety are our own worst enemy. Let me know how you get on tomorrow 

I was the same with that type of pain too and also made myself sore (still am) also I was convinced I had loads of lymph nodes I could feel but they showed me the ultra sound and the consultant was like no they're absolutely fine!! I was having a major panic at the appointment. I'm if both of them are a bit sore it might be hormonal. Thinking of you. Literally as soon as I came away from the appointment all these 'symptoms' I was getting seemed to ease straight away. Stress and anxiety are our own worst enemy. Let me know how you get on tomorrow 

Ahhh right well thanks for the reply ad support very appreciated I will defo let you know please have every thing crossed and good vibes for me please