Hiya I feel ya worry I've just had my appointment through for breast clinic next weds and am now panicking like no other I thought I had dimpling on right breast went doctors she scheme couldn't find no lumps because I was crying and in a mess she sending me breast clinic but she did say I have some lumpy breast tissue so I guess it's for that and peace of mind for myself she said she doesn't think I have cancer which helped me for a bit but now the fear irrational thoughts are all coming thick and fast 

[@Anxiousnelly]‍ how long did you have to wait for your appointment? Have you been to the clinic before? When I went last time they were all lovely. 
anxiety makes things 1000x worse. Any other twinge or pain I just relate to this lump now. I hope your appointment day comes around quickly but I know it can be the longest wait ever! 

It will be dead on 2 weeks since I went doctors anxiety is a *** I must say I have been before about 9/10years ago can remember went in see a doctor and nurse he felt boob drew where he wanted scanned then went for scan but because I was in such a state they scanned both breast and was told I had cysts in both breasts the boob I'm going for this time is right one and I'm older so do believe I might have to have a mammogram as well I suffer from anxiety all the time about health and illness and it sucks I can't take noone as they not allowing anyone in think that's why it's hitting me harder just praying it's nothing naughty 

That's good though within two weeks (although I know it would be nice the next day or something!) out of desperation this afternoon I phoned the private hospital near by and they don't even have any appointments until 16th feb! Since I had my daughter my health anxiety is so crippling. I feel physically ill when I get an attack of it it's the worst thing. I completely understand how you feel. I had a break down in the doctors office this morning I'm a nervous wreck!

Can you remember if the cysts were painful? My boob is a bit tender at times. I'm also getting some back pain so of course I'm thinking the worst possible scenario there is. The rational part of me remembers I do carry my 9 month old round everywhere like the queen so im pretty sure it's just strain from that! 

yes it's definitely so much worse not being able to take anyone with you. My last appointment was the same so I just sat there in silence with my mind racing until I was seen (was there for hours on my own!) luckily they told me there and then what the issue was. I hope your not there too long next week x

No I never had any pain at all but they say from what I've been reading if u have breast pain it's uikely to be cancer but this time round I do have q slight bit of tenderness on the right boob in question but I had my monthlys eary and still on yes I carry wen out my 1 year old so I'm assuming the shoulder and back pain strain is due to that even tho I've read beast cancer can give you that sort of pain from Google etc anxiety sucks I'm just worried as I know with age your risks go up and I've read if you have children later in life ur risks go up and I'm 43 and had my last baby in 2020 so that doesn't help at all I'm trying not to go on Google or touch my boob have been okish but now I feel the need to prod and poke see if they still feel lumpy or not qnd I'm not gonna lie I had had an alcoholic drink to try calm down 

I saw the doctor about my anxiety maybe a week ago now and they've started me on citalopram so I'm hoping that this controls that aspect of things. Have you tried anything yourself? Google is the worst isn't it you know you shouldn't look but then go into a worm hole of cancer websites and scare yourself silly. Me saying 'I'm sure you will be okay' probably won't help you! But it could be pre menopausal? Although I know your only 43! Also your boobs just completely change don't they after babies I know mine have!!

I've made a pact with myself today just to have a feel of them once a day in the mornings before I wake up. I tried not doing it at all but it was just literally on my mind constantly. Also when I wake up I actually feel well in myself it's the end of the day when I've worried non stop my body must go into some kind of flight or fight mode I just feel like rubbish! I just completely understand how you are feeling. I hope it helps speaking to someone on here about it. I know I find it helps me a bit x

Could be premenopausal I have been good not to Google touch  for the week my doctor told me not to feel till after my period has finished so only once a month even showed me how to feel properly as I dig in damage my skin bruises etc I don't really want to go on any sort of medication I'm a type of person that doesn't even take a pill if I have pain headaches etc but I know I can't go on like this not good for me or my kids partner etc yes does help to chat to ppl who are feeling going through the same issues 

Also if u look up stringy it's the same as lumpy which can be cysts or bengin fibrodema apparently quite common in women so I am holding on to the doctor telling me she doesn't think that I have cancer and that just wished I didn't have to go alone 

I was the same. The anxiety built up and built up until I burst and had a full blown panic attack. I'm just not the same person I was and my husband told me to go to the doctors so I finally plucked up the courage to go! They also offered talking therapies which might be something for you if you didn't feel like taking medication? I think if you book an appointment to speak to someone about your anxiety after your breast clinic appointment it may make you feel a bit better? I felt better after getting it all out. I also sat down with my husband and just cried and told him how I was feeling like I just have a sense of doom all the time it's terrible. I think he understands now. 
how are you sleeping? (If your sleeping at all) this doesn't help things does it :(

I think my partner is tired of me as I've been worrying panicking every day for years but never gone doctors I always palm it off through fear of being told yes there's lumps etc he does understand my fears but I think I've drove him crazy lol I do it to my kids aswell that's how bad it has got I make then feel my boobs etc but that is gonna change well I hope I'm gonna show them especially my daughter not to be afraid I only made appointment coz I see dimpling well what I thought was dimpling dont think it was as doctor never said anything I just think having my baby which was a bit of a surprise at 43 has just made me worry more than I did before like if I die he won't have me remember me etc which scares the hell out of I need to be here for all my kids and especially my baby all my other kids are older 21 18 14