Hi Rainbow, 

Sorry to hear that you are going through this. Can't offer any particular advice at this point but only to say you are not alone. 

I had my biopsy yesterday, having found calcifications so like you am awaiting the results. 

The odds are on our side but I totallybunderstand the waiting and worry is just horrific. 

Stay strong and really hoping for the best outcome for you on Friday x

Hi positive,

Thanks for your reply,sorry to hear your going through the same worry. It's so hard just think straight and stay positive isnt it. Wanst sure if the odds were on our side because I stupidly looked on google and it's all very mixed information. Stupid of me to think otherwise just sheer desperation I think. Dud your drs give you any indication of the outcome? Xx

Hey!

Actually had a little wobble last night - tends to happen when no one is aorund and I'm left with my own thoughts!! I'm fine though!!

Wishing you all the best for tomorrow, sending good luck, positive vibes, and why not ask the big man upstairs - can't do any harm!!

When I first read your post about "the big man upstairs" - I imagined you having a tall/large neighbour in the apartment above you - then I twigged! Clearly this worry is affecting my brain haha!!

Let us know how you get on - hope you manage to get some sleep tonight.

Xx

Hi

Hope you are ok,I know what you mean about the wobbles and it's not nice,I'm the same. As for the big man upstairs ha ha just what I call him as I never really believe of anyone up there but I'm in a state of desperation I think.

Think I'm going to have a large brandy tonight this will hopefully help with the sleep situation,feel like I'm ready for any news now just need it over with. I will let you know how I get on......I'm hoping your really busy at weekend and it passes quick for you xx

Hi

So the hospital has just rang 6 bloody hours before my appointment to cancel my appointment because my results arnt back because theres a back log in the pathology lab. To say I'm numb is an understatement.....not there until Wednesday morning now. Really dont know how I'm going to do any more days of this bloody torture xx

Oh my god - that is so s*** - excuse my language!

I appreciate that things get held up etc but to not even tell you until 6 hours beforehand - you must be fuming but also just stressed about the further waiting.

I'm really sorry this has happened.

Sounds like we both need to try and keep busy this weekend to be as distracted from the anxiety as possible.

Stay strong and hang in there - sending hugs xx

Can I ask what area you are in - just wondering how things differ from one place to the next!!

Hi

Oh believe me I've done a hell of a lot of swearing this morning. I prepared myself for a call maybe yesterday about cancelling but thought with appointment day arriving I was good to go. Feel like I'm back to square one,it really is ***. I'm  in Manchester.....where are you at? If think we both definitely deserve a drink or two this weekend. How are you feeling? Xx

I don't blame you - swear away!! I think you deserve to vent!

And you're right - we both deserve a drink! I will treat myself to a beer or two watching the rugby tomorrow haha!

I'm in Basingstoke in Hampshire. Looks like both Basingstoke & Manchester get their results on a Wednesday!

I'm feeling ok - struggling to concentrate on work today (hence why I'm replying to this rather than writing a report) and glad that it's the weekend.....Monday will feel a step closer to results day!

Xx

A very well deserved beer at that.....its so hard to concentrate of anything isnt it,just feel like your making progress with being positive and then your mind goes for a wander AGAIN.....I'm not doing myself any favours though I've no appetite and struggling to sleep. I'd be happy to set up brandy intravenously until tues evening!! I didnt realise they only got results on a certain day,if that's the case then they would have known about mine two days ago. Xx

Oh, I don't know if they only get results on certain days - but was told mine are back on Wednesday aswell so was just being facetious! I am sure if they knew two days ago they would have informed you sooner.

I definitely know how you feel with the mind wandering - it does my head in. Fine one minute then having a little cry the next (I find this happens when I'm driving.....not ideal for concentrating on the road haha!).

My sleeping hasn't been too bad but going to bed later then usual so am extra tired when I'm trying to fall asleep. Plus I'm a six hours a night kinda girl anyway so never been huge on sleep!.

Hang in there! We've go this x

That will be me clinging on to any little detail then turning it into a huge one!! Doing that with everything at the minute. Oh no the driving situation not good hey....I get the kids to school and work but dont remember how I got there ha ha.....really want to thank you for saving my sanity these last couple of days as much as I dont want you to be going through this,its also a comfort to talk to someone who is. I struggle to keep my eyes open before 9pm but then wide awake from 3am onwards. Hope you have a quick weekend and enjoy your beer tomorrow xx

That will be me clinging on to any little detail then turning it into a huge one!! Doing that with everything at the minute. Oh no the driving situation not good hey....I get the kids to school and work but dont remember how I got there ha ha.....really want to thank you for saving my sanity these last couple of days as much as I dont want you to be going through this,its also a comfort to talk to someone who is. I struggle to keep my eyes open before 9pm but then wide awake from 3am onwards. Hope you have a quick weekend and enjoy your beer tomorrow xx

No problem at all - and thank you to you too! It really feels like we're in the same boat so can truly understand the horrible-ness of all the waiting and uncertaintly - getting our results will only be two days apart so pretty much in it together! I value chatting too :-)

I do that too - espcecially journeys that I do every day - suddenly you've arrived and can't really recall how because mind was elsewhere!

Enjoy the brandy - you deserve it! Chat soon x

Morning 

How you doing? Hope you managed to switch off and keep busy over the weekend. I've really tried to switch off but back in the spiral of stupid thoughts again today and tomorrow morning cant come quick enough. Sad to say but I'm just as worried about my appointment being cancelled again,dont think I could wait any longer I'm exhausted with it all x

Hi!

Yeah I did OK over the weekend keeping occupied and distracted. Today not quite so good. A lady at work asked how I was (she knew nothing was just being nice) and I burst into tears on her!! Oops! The spiral returns here too. 

Really hope that your appointment goes ahead tomorrow. I can't possibly imagine that they will postpone it again. What time us your appointment?

Roll on tomorrow!

Sending positive thoughts x

Hi

Sorry to hear that but sometimes that breakdown gives you more strength in a strange way. Funny how someone being nice to you can do that isnt it. I keep telling myself not to worry as I'm sure they couldn't change it again.....but I think anything is possible at the moment. Only blessing out of them changing the appointment is it's now a 10 am one. I feel ready for whatever is is I just need it regardless.

Sending hugs back and hopefully we will be both back on track come this weekend xx

Thinking of you today. I have everything crossed for good news for you. 

Take care and let me know how it goes. Xx

Thank you xx

Hi 

Sorry for the late reply but I think I was in a state of shock and relief and took myself to bed. I got good news and was given the all clear which is fantastic and I'm over the moon about and today can finally absorb the good news. Very strange as you think I would have been jumping for joy yesterday but it was all very strange and just completely felt numb. I'm sending you my luck that I had yesterday with me and preying you get the same outcome. Hope your ok and tomorrow isnt far away now xxxx

Yay!

This is such amazing news and I am so happy for you. What a relief - glad it has now sunk in and you can get on with your life minus that hideous anxiety! Fantasitic :-)

I will let you know how I get on tomorrow - fingers crossed!

Enjoy this feeling xx

Thinking of you today,sending big hugs xxxx

Let me know how you get on x

Thank you. Xx