Hi All!

I hope everyone managed to get at least a little bit of respite from the fear and anxiety this weekend.

Vicki - how was the beach hut? Hope that fresh air did the trick for you.

Take care of yourselves xx

I took the kids to the cinema on Saturday, and then had my sons 4th birthday party on Sunday. So I've managed to keep quite well distracted!! 
 

The breast clinic just called, and they've moved my results appointment to 9:40 on Thursday, instead of 11:40. So at least I don't have to worry all morning. It will be school run, then appointment!! Praying for benign results!! Xxx

Hi Mary

Well done on getting through  it! You are a superstar. I hope you are feeling OK today also. 

I'm currently in a hospital bed awaiting insertion of a picc line. The doctor performing the procedure is so unbelievably wonderful I'm blown away. He came to see me earlier and what a beautiful and spiritual person he is. He told me an analogy of when you look at a crystal clear lake and you can see fish swimming, but then a naughty person throws a pebble and disrupts your view and the fish disappear. He said that even though it has happened, the fish are still there and your crystal clear view will return soon. Honestly I cried and then he had a tear also. His own sister is going through breast cancer as well so he is doubly understanding. What a guy! 

Anyway hope my procedure is quick and easy. Speak soon and rest up xxx 

Oh Vicki that's wonderful, it made me cry a bit as I feel a bit delicate today.  You were meant to have that lovely Dr, he sounds wonderful, so glad he was there for you. 
Sorry to hear you're in hospital this weekend, I hope you can see some sunshine from your window.  I've read you're going through it with this chemo, but a means to an end I suppose and you will get to the other side very soon.  Keep going, keep strong, I'm sending you a huge hug and best wishes.  
M x

Thank you xx

Aww Mary, you are bound to be feeling delicate. The highs of getting through yesterday followed by the gentle dip of today. Every day will feel different for all of us, no matter what the day has been like. If it all feels too much, we just need to breathe and remember how far we have come already and imagine how strong we will be in another few months time. Let's focus on a beautiful rest of our lives. 

Lots of love xxx

You're so right Vicki.  When I think of the journey everyone is on, and my own journey, I know I have learned a lot about myself these last 11 weeks.  When I think what a mess I was at the beginning blindsided by the fear and the waiting, and now, post surgery I feel a stronger person, and less afraid.  I wish I knew it was possible to feel this way at the beginning, and I hope anyone else starting their journey can take some comfort and positivity from our experiences.  
 

We're not quite there yet, but the finishing line now in sight hopefully.

M xx

How are you feeling now it's close again to your surgery? I must admit the thought of being laid up again isn't a thrilling prospect after starting to feel a bit more normal! Let's hope they get it all this time for both of us.

I had a mini emotional meltdown last weekend but I think that's because I was getting back on my feet and starting to do more and got sideswiped by Covid!!!

Hi GT63

Thanks for remembering. Yes, my SMX, implant surgery and node biopsy is on Wednesday. I am absolutely dreading it. You are so right - it's been so lovely being able to do things again; I feel I am going back to square one. Dreading the drain, dreading them finding cancerous cells in my nodes, dreading having some weird alien foob. I've been trying to keep busy by decorating my daughter's room but it's never far away. 

PCR tomorrow then weird dye injection on Tuesday. On the plus side I've lost 1/2 a stone as feel vaguely sick most of the time :laugh:

When is your surgery? Will it be affected by having Covid? Hope you are feeling ok?

x

Hi

That's wonderful news. So happy for you. Hope you're making a good recovery and enjoying this beautiful weather.

xx

Hi

Glad your mastectomy went well and no drain is a huge bonus. You have given me some good vibes for mine this week. 

Are you managing to sleep ok and control any pain?

Rest up

xx

Hi Vicki

Hope you're doing ok. I feel like that doctor was sent to you with his beautiful analogy. You are one brave lady.

Sending love

x

Hi Vicki

Hope you're doing ok. I feel like that doctor was sent to you with his beautiful analogy. You are one brave lady.

Sending love

x

Thanks Bubblesmum :)

I know. What a lovely lovely man. He even said as he was about to do my procedure 'I advise sitting in front of that lovely pond right now'. Bless him. 

Anyway picc line now in and at home. About to have pizza as a treat. 

Xx