Hi All!

I hope everyone managed to get at least a little bit of respite from the fear and anxiety this weekend.

Vicki - how was the beach hut? Hope that fresh air did the trick for you.

Take care of yourselves xx

I took the kids to the cinema on Saturday, and then had my sons 4th birthday party on Sunday. So I've managed to keep quite well distracted!! 
 

The breast clinic just called, and they've moved my results appointment to 9:40 on Thursday, instead of 11:40. So at least I don't have to worry all morning. It will be school run, then appointment!! Praying for benign results!! Xxx

Hope everyone is doing well.  Popped on to read some updates.  Sounds as if all you ladies are doing so well.  It's wonderful to read all your good news and also wonderful positivity in challenging times, especially everyone having chemo.  You're all amazing.

I had my mastectomy today and so relieved to finally get it done after a few delays.  It went really well and I haven't got any pain (see what tomorrow is like!) and, surprisingly no drain either which was a big surprise.  I'm straight in with the granny bra and soft prosthesis and I'm channelling Nora Batty with the surgical stocking, but so far it's absolutely fine.  So, anyone waiting for surgery I hope my experience gives a bit of reassurance - it's not bad, honestly.

Results in 2 weeks, another worry, and one last hurdle but fingers crossed!

Hugs and best wishes to everyone x

Hi Mary, 

So pleased to hear your surgery went well and you are not in pain. And no drains! That's a bonus!!

Wishing you a smooth recovery and good news when you get your results.

Lots of love xx

Hi Vicki, 

Thank you! Yes, it's certainly a good feeling!!

Roll on Sunday for you to have some respite from the ugh! Sounds like you are facing it all head on and being such a brave lady!

Wig sounds fab!!!

Hope you are able to have a good weekend.

Lots of love xx

Hi Mary

Well done on getting through  it! You are a superstar. I hope you are feeling OK today also. 

I'm currently in a hospital bed awaiting insertion of a picc line. The doctor performing the procedure is so unbelievably wonderful I'm blown away. He came to see me earlier and what a beautiful and spiritual person he is. He told me an analogy of when you look at a crystal clear lake and you can see fish swimming, but then a naughty person throws a pebble and disrupts your view and the fish disappear. He said that even though it has happened, the fish are still there and your crystal clear view will return soon. Honestly I cried and then he had a tear also. His own sister is going through breast cancer as well so he is doubly understanding. What a guy! 

Anyway hope my procedure is quick and easy. Speak soon and rest up xxx 

Oh Vicki that's wonderful, it made me cry a bit as I feel a bit delicate today.  You were meant to have that lovely Dr, he sounds wonderful, so glad he was there for you. 
Sorry to hear you're in hospital this weekend, I hope you can see some sunshine from your window.  I've read you're going through it with this chemo, but a means to an end I suppose and you will get to the other side very soon.  Keep going, keep strong, I'm sending you a huge hug and best wishes.  
M x

Thank you xx

Aww Mary, you are bound to be feeling delicate. The highs of getting through yesterday followed by the gentle dip of today. Every day will feel different for all of us, no matter what the day has been like. If it all feels too much, we just need to breathe and remember how far we have come already and imagine how strong we will be in another few months time. Let's focus on a beautiful rest of our lives. 

Lots of love xxx

You're so right Vicki.  When I think of the journey everyone is on, and my own journey, I know I have learned a lot about myself these last 11 weeks.  When I think what a mess I was at the beginning blindsided by the fear and the waiting, and now, post surgery I feel a stronger person, and less afraid.  I wish I knew it was possible to feel this way at the beginning, and I hope anyone else starting their journey can take some comfort and positivity from our experiences.  
 

We're not quite there yet, but the finishing line now in sight hopefully.

M xx

How are you feeling now it's close again to your surgery? I must admit the thought of being laid up again isn't a thrilling prospect after starting to feel a bit more normal! Let's hope they get it all this time for both of us.

I had a mini emotional meltdown last weekend but I think that's because I was getting back on my feet and starting to do more and got sideswiped by Covid!!!

Hi GT63

Thanks for remembering. Yes, my SMX, implant surgery and node biopsy is on Wednesday. I am absolutely dreading it. You are so right - it's been so lovely being able to do things again; I feel I am going back to square one. Dreading the drain, dreading them finding cancerous cells in my nodes, dreading having some weird alien foob. I've been trying to keep busy by decorating my daughter's room but it's never far away. 

PCR tomorrow then weird dye injection on Tuesday. On the plus side I've lost 1/2 a stone as feel vaguely sick most of the time :laugh:

When is your surgery? Will it be affected by having Covid? Hope you are feeling ok?

x

Hi GT63

Thanks for remembering. Yes, my SMX, implant surgery and node biopsy is on Wednesday. I am absolutely dreading it. You are so right - it's been so lovely being able to do things again; I feel I am going back to square one. Dreading the drain, dreading them finding cancerous cells in my nodes, dreading having some weird alien foob. I've been trying to keep busy by decorating my daughter's room but it's never far away. 

PCR tomorrow then weird dye injection on Tuesday. On the plus side I've lost 1/2 a stone as feel vaguely sick most of the time :laugh:

When is your surgery? Will it be affected by having Covid? Hope you are feeling ok?

x

Do let me know how you get on. Mine's on 4th April. I'll have PCR on Friday coming so hopefully will be clear - 

Good to keep busy where we can, I'm still not fully operational physically though after my last surgeries and the itching is driving me insane! Also get a sensation in my nipple like someone is trying to tweak it off every so often :cry xx

I've done so many lfts that my nose is really sore now! I will definitely let you know how I get on - I'm sure it won't be as bad as I think. The 4 week wait has felt like 4 years!

Sorry to hear you're not fully operational yet - hopefully you'll be better after the next one.

x