Cancer Research UK main site
  • Replies 12 replies
  • Views 854 views
  • Users 0 members are here

New diagnosis

HB205
Offline

I was told a few days ago I have cancer, don't know grade or size of tumour till after scans later today. 

I have mixed feelings, I still want to live and watch my youngest daughter and son grow up. I dont know how my loving wife will manage if I am not there as her support network is diminished.

I was a positive person but that person is slowly dying and I see myself as planning for my demise, are these emotions experienced by all on being told those hateful words - "you have cancer". 

I used to dream but now see nothing when I try to sleep!. 

 

  • Offline in reply to Worriedas

    Thank you for ur post hun, honestly I don't feel that im doing anything special. I have suffered from chronic pain with fibromyalgia for the last 16 years plus a load of other health issues. 

    I don't have any new pain or other symptoms except the red rash on my breast and maybe that's why people I know think I'm being strong. I think that when treatment starts it will hit me and will sink in.

    I am so lucky to have an amazing husband and family who are there for me no matter what and I think lockdown has kinda prepared me for shielding again.

    I'm trying to stay upbeat and laugh and be silly because I know it's all going to change soon enough.

    I'm 53 and have no intention of letting this thing beat me,, I have way too much to live for!

    It would be great to stay in touch, I think that the more support and love we have will help us on what we are going to have to go through.

    I do hope that you get the all clear and that this is a false alarm, but whatever the results say know that u have people to talk to.

    Good luck talk soon , Ani xx

  • Offline in reply to Ani53

    Hi, had a mental few days, we spent the bank holiday weekend seeing our grown up children and grandchildren while it was still safe to do so. Just getting used to seeing my little angels after covid lockdown and now I'm self isolating again .

    Had my first chemo today and it hasn't been so bad so far but I know it's not going to last. I was given a load of meds before I went home but by the time I got home ten minutes later I had completely forgotten what to take when, hubby is going to call in the morning to find out what's what bless him.

    At the weekend I let my 7 year old granddaughter cut my hair, it was quite long and I was told that the longer it is when it falls out it can pull at the scalp and make it sore. She loved it and I'm being totally honest here with some help from my husband they did a great job! Unless u look closely u wouldn't know it was done at home.

    Finding ways to include children if they aren't to young really seems to help them, well it does with ours.

    I will be in touch with an update in a few days if u would like but I don't want to frighten anyone so just let me know if you don't want to hear it.

    Take care and good luck big hugs xxx

Speak to a nurse

Quick links

Follow us

Registered with Fundraising Regulator (logo)
Cancer Research UK is a registered charity in England and Wales (1089464), Scotland (SC041666), the Isle of Man (1103) and Jersey (247). A company limited by guarantee. Registered company in England and Wales (4325234) and the Isle of Man (5713F). Registered address: 2 Redman Place, London, E20 1JQ.