4pm. I woke up god knows how many times in the night wishing the hour I woke up would just stand still.

My body feels dreadful. Legs so wobbly. I'm so scared . 

When I saw that computerised appointment yesterday stating breast surgery team I just fell to the floor. How am I going to do this today xx

So glad you messaged. I've been waiting for you xx

So glad you messaged. I was waiting for you xx

Can't even think straight as I keep responding to my own messages lol. X

Done it again. Can't even think straight keep replying to my own messages. Don't forget im a newbie lol. Xx

Hi Honey

I'm here! Just went for a walk with a friend. 
 

You will get through today. And all the rest! It's far better knowing than not! Trust me. The waiting was by far the worst. 

If you do get a diagnosis your results will have been in front of a multi-disciplinary team and your treatment plan will already have been discussed. Lots of info but all things that will get you started on your journey to recovery! 
 

Are you taking anyone with you for results? I went with a best friend. 
 

Sarah xxx 
 

Sarah. Xx

Yes my husband is coming with me. Hope I haven't replied to myself again lol.

They must of spoken about it and planned it now as as you said I'm with the breast surgery team. Skipped results obviously already. Suppose they knew I was told when had ultrasound so they've moved onto next stage.

Will they check me again. Silly question as I'm known as the drop it down girl... Like I wear an off the shoulder top so I don't have to flap about with buttons etc. Much quicker. See I'm panicking about what to wear. Xx

Drop it down :)))

When I went back it was the breast care team. This consisted of my consultant and the nurse who was to become 'my' breast care nurse. 
 

Before they gave me my results the consultant (who then went in to become my surgeon) had a feel of my boob! Not that you could see/feel anything outwardly. I presume he wanted to familiarise himself with the area in question! That was the only exam I had then. 
 

I then went into his office and he gave me the results. Telling me what grade and type of nastiness it was. It was graded as a 2 after biopsy. After surgery it was regraded to a 3 (more aggressive). It was hormone positive. HER2 negative. At this stage during initial tests they hadn't seen anything in my lymph nodes - no biopsies taken. 
 

They removed 3 nodes during surgery and these came back clear :) 

I had my results on 5th May and surgery was 8th June. 
 

xxxxxx

Yep I've got a feeling mine is hormonal. Started menopause two years ago. Felt rubbish from then on in.

Right il wear an off shoulder top then. Thanks for that.

Right I'm going to get ready now.

As soon as I know il message you. Keep fingers and toes crossed for me.

I don't know you personally but I love you already xx

Jax xx