I've woken up feeling sick to my stomach, my body is already going into overdrive. I feel unsteady on my legs all the time. 4pm il know. If I can do it so can you. God knows how I'm going to get through this day till 4pm but I will. I will let you know as soon as I am back. We are not alone. You have me. We will get through this together. Xx

Jax xx

This appointment my husband is coming with me. Even though I had to ask. I cannot believe they knew I had it by the scan and made me go on my own last time . I came back from the hospital and went off for three hours walking. Can't even remember where I went. The world was a blur.

I so want these hours to go slow today but 4pm will come like it always does and my world once again will come tumbling down.

I think it's the not knowing. I know I've got bc but it's the next procedures that are scaring me.

Il try and keep strong. Thank you for your kind wishes. Il inform later the outcome xx

Jax xx

It's still baffled me how it wasn't picked up on my last mammogram a year ago. I'm hoping it's not the aggressive one. I've woken up feeling so sick and scared. 

I can do this. I've been through miscarriages, a violent relationship, you name it. So I'm sure I've got some strength left in me to fight this. The best thing I did yesterday was sign up on here. Everyone understands  exactly how each and everyone one of us feels.

I didn't want this but if it's brought me closer to people like yourselves than that's the best outcome anyone can have xx

Il post todays outcome  later xx

Jax xx

Big hugs xxx

Oh yes I've got a list as long as my arm of questions lol xx

Xxx

Hi jax69,

I will be thinking of you today, I had my CT results yesterday after being told last week that the 7cm lump they removed from my cervix was a rare cancer. 
 

yesterday was the longest day of my life and one I will never forget and I never want to repeat , my appointment wasn't until 5, so I was frantic all day, no one Understands unless been through it but I was told the CT and cervix is all clear of cancer, my amazing consultant managed to cut it all out. I  still have a journey ahead to make sure I am 100 percent free and may need more surgery or treatment but I could not of asked for better news. Considering it was so large it seems it was still early stages. 
 

good luck, you can do this xx

So happy for you it's clear. I know exactly how you felt. I'm feeling it now.

4pm. Such a long wait. 5pm for you. Doesn't it baffle you why results days aren't done in the mornings. It is what it is.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Let's hope my next post isn't as devastating as the first but I've got a feeling it will be. Xxx 

It's weird but I feel  like this cancer chat site is my personal army. They are all fighting with me and for me. Such a lovely feeling xx