My amazing husband got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer 6 weeks ago. The week prior we got the news my sister had 12 month to live with a brain tumour. It came as a complete shock to all of us and it's been a whirlwind of everything. He starts treatment tomorrow but I need to know how I'm supposed to be. It currently feels like I'm being everything to everyone right now even an emotional crutch to his parents. I'm trying to be as positive as possible and just had a complete breakdown when walking the dog (the other dog walkers much have thought I'm mad). I know there's no rule book but why do I feel so selfish that my whole life has been turned upside down in an instant. I want to turn the clock back
