Recall after a routine Mammogram. Cannot do this...

I have had mental health problems since I was a child mainly extreme anxiety.  I am now 55. I take daily medication, but of course it does not deal with it all.

I always have mammograms and smear tests when called for them. I am now 55. I have never had any problems fortunately.

There is no history of cancer on either both sides of my family. Mental health issues, yes and plenty, but no cancer.

I did not expect the letter I received today. I have to go to hospital in a few days, on Thursday, as I need further investigations.

My anxiety is off the scale.I have taken my daily medication plus Diazepam that I have prescribed, and I still feel like I am going through the roof with anxiety. 

I cannot cope. 

I cannot deal with this. I just know this is it. I am going to have Cancer.

How people with diagnosed Cancer, cope, I will never know, but that must be testament to their strength or personality type.  I am not strong emotionally.

How do people with any form of mental illness, cope?

Sorry for going on like I am, but I am so scared. I feel like this is a bad dream.

My thoughts are with every single person who is dealing with Cancer. I wish you all the very best and hope that you can be free from it eventually. 

 

  • Reading your post is exactly how I feel Ive Said exactly the same too.

    I'm waiting for results too

    I don't want them either.

    I know it's going to be bad,

     

    I'm sending a huge hug to you xx

  • Please slow down...

    I need to tell you this happened to 2 of my friends recently and both turned out to be ok!

    One needed an ultrasound which was all fine and the other had some thickening which turned out to be an old injury.

    IF... it is cancer... and most recalls aren't, if it is caught early it has a very good chance of being cured.

    Also a plus if it doesn't run in close family.

    Please try and focus on the positives. I've been there many times with my cancer and since being clear still go through hell with any ache or pain which has turned out ok.

    You will be surprised how strong and brave you become when you have to deal with cancer but yours could be an image that wasn't very clear or a number of things.

    Also don't google. I wish you all the luck, let me know how you go, count the days off one by one until your appointment xx

  • Hi

    Hoping yours is something simple too as I've said in my post above.

    Good luck xx

  • Mine is abdominal

    Pancreatic and we all know that is one of the worst.

    So this is why I say I feel how you do about things,,

    I suffer fro extreme health anxiety.

    I'm absolutely petrified

    I've started doing things ie photos etc

     

    Sending you huge hugs and best wishes

    X

  • Thank you to all of you for your replies. It means a lot, and has helped me. 

    I went to sleep sobbing and woke this morning to feeling as though I am not really here. almost like this is not happening,

    I appreciate you have your own worries about your health, and I feel bad now for writing such an hysterical mesage, when I have not as yet been diagnosed with anything. My health and general anxiety is always off the scale, so when something is wrong with me, I immediately think the worst.

    I hope you all get good news and get to be cancer free soon. Sending you all love, light and healing energy.

     

  • Don't feel bad about anything youve written x

    Everything you write is eerily similar 3 me.

    Its 12.33pm and I'm still laying in bed I just don't want to get up. I can't be bothered.

    Everything is an effort.

    I'm snappy

    All I think is I've got this horrible thing.

    I cried in the ct scanner yesterday.

    Im the same as you with the health anxiety I need to get proper help again but I'm waiting for it to be my turn as the list is long. I'm living on Kalms at the present. I have constant nervous stomach butterflies times a million.

    I'll send a friend request you don't have to accept x

  • Mine was bowel.

    When do you have your appointment?

    I didn't suffer with anxiety until my cancer, especially after the second time, now i have a good few weeks then get a strange ache/pain and it hits the roof, again.

    Was convinced a few months ago it was back as had aching for several weeks, they did a scan and was so relieved it was clear and after about a week the aching went. It's strange once you know it's not serious how much you improve but hell while you're dangling in the middle.

    Hoping for a good outcome for you, keep us updated xx

  • Hello

    They just said that the results will be looked d at.

    I'd had an ultrasound scan and it showed dilated pancreatic duct so told to have a ct scan. 

    After the ultrasound the gp said to have a amylase blood test. I has that then he text the next day saying 

    "the result was normal which is reassuring"!?!? What does that bloody mean. 

    I'm beyond scared of the call coming. 

    I have pretty constant pain at the top of stomach so I just know it's got me. 

     

    I'm glad to hear you are doing good and I appreciate you messaging me xx

     

     

  • 'Sounds reassuring' sounds positive to me.

    Don't know anything about pancreatic cancer but i'm sure they will have checked your blood for a tumor marker.

    Try and focus on the other things it could be and not the worst possible outcome.

    They never seem to hurry with these things, while every day is absolute hell for us doing the waiting, it's all 'in a days work' at their end.

    I'm sure if it was bad news they would get you in quicker.

    Could you give them a ring or your GP to hurry things up.

    I was once waiting for ct results and after a couple of weeks of hell I went to my GP for something else and told her how I was feeling, a couple of clicks on the computer and she said, the result is on here and it's fine.... all worry was taken away straight away... it took another 2 weeks for the hospital to send me a letter to tell me the same. Why do they do this...

  • Hello

    I only had the ct scan yesterday morning so I don't think I'll hear today.

    I'd expect tomorrow.

    When you look at pancreatic cancer it's not good.

    I have some of the symptoms with dilated pancreatic duct ie pain upper middle abdomen. 

    The gp rang when I'd had the ultrasound scan and was very quiet in his speaking to me (you know what I mean) in that call he said about the amylase blood test... I just thought what does ' result normal which is reassuring "?!?! 

    But still said I'll send you for a urgent ct scan

     

    So when would a tumour marker of been done?

    Thankyou so much for your help xx

    Hope you are doing ok