I have had mental health problems since I was a child mainly extreme anxiety.  I am now 55. I take daily medication, but of course it does not deal with it all.

I always have mammograms and smear tests when called for them. I am now 55. I have never had any problems fortunately.

There is no history of cancer on either both sides of my family. Mental health issues, yes and plenty, but no cancer.

I did not expect the letter I received today. I have to go to hospital in a few days, on Thursday, as I need further investigations.

My anxiety is off the scale.I have taken my daily medication plus Diazepam that I have prescribed, and I still feel like I am going through the roof with anxiety. 

I cannot cope. 

I cannot deal with this. I just know this is it. I am going to have Cancer.

How people with diagnosed Cancer, cope, I will never know, but that must be testament to their strength or personality type.  I am not strong emotionally.

How do people with any form of mental illness, cope?

Sorry for going on like I am, but I am so scared. I feel like this is a bad dream.

My thoughts are with every single person who is dealing with Cancer. I wish you all the very best and hope that you can be free from it eventually.