Cancer Research UK main site
  • Replies 4 replies
  • Views 453 views
  • Users 0 members are here

99% is quite high

Auburnamanda
Offline

Hi there,

Hope you're all doing well.  Sorry if this seems a little self indulgent but its 3am and I can't sleep. I went to the breast clinic today feeling pretty confident that i was wasting their time, that I maybe had a cyst or something.  By the time I left I'd been told that it was 99% likely that I have breast cancer.  Of course there is the wait for biopsy results, which is probably the reason I'm awake at this time.  I really couldn't think of any questions at the time, or really take it in.  It still doesn't seem real.  Does anyone have any advice for staying sane over the longest 5 days until my appointment to get the biopsy results? 

Parents
  • Offline

    Hiya Auburnamanda,   You poor thing, just when you need your sleep to function ......you know all this, so sorry if I sound like I'm telling you things you already know......the brain is such a powerful thing that it can either serve you during life's journey by picking through information and keeping things on an even keel...... or throw you into depths of despair. 

    Perhaps one way of dealing with this moment of forthcoming and impending uncertainty, is to marvel at the way science has been able to offer you a diagnosis and potentially a treatment plan. (...because there is one which will be tailored just for you).  This is just part of another life experience which has been presented to you........and........there is no way you can duck out of the way of this one.  If  worrying ever served a useful purpose, then it should be available on prescription!   It's your poor mind kicking and screaming and working through lots of imaginary scenarios.....it can be so exhausting, but, they are just scenarios.  .....  it might be helpful to just reign in your thoughts about what might happen later today, tomorrow, next week.......and take a calmer approach to the present moment......think of the 'present' as a gift.....it is kind of.   Our mind is in the past reliving and trying to untangle things, or in the future.....anticipating what might happen.  I know, I know,....sorry to be stating the blindingly obvious but  you only really have the present moment to contend with.......stay with that thought and you wil not miss the bird song and the other joyful moments that make up your wonderful life......what's that you are having for breakfast?  

    Stay strong Auburnamanda and have a brilliant day

    virtual hugs.....

  • Offline in reply to ElaZed

    ElaZed thank you for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it. You're right, of course.  My rational brain is right there with you. My 3am brain wasn't rational though :laugh: I think it's still sinking in and I'm still holding on to that 1%  Thank you again. It means a lot that you reached out xx

Reply
  • Offline in reply to ElaZed

    ElaZed thank you for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it. You're right, of course.  My rational brain is right there with you. My 3am brain wasn't rational though :laugh: I think it's still sinking in and I'm still holding on to that 1%  Thank you again. It means a lot that you reached out xx

Children
No Data

Speak to a nurse

Quick links

Follow us

Registered with Fundraising Regulator (logo)
Cancer Research UK is a registered charity in England and Wales (1089464), Scotland (SC041666), the Isle of Man (1103) and Jersey (247). A company limited by guarantee. Registered company in England and Wales (4325234) and the Isle of Man (5713F). Registered address: 2 Redman Place, London, E20 1JQ.