Hiya Auburnamanda,   You poor thing, just when you need your sleep to function ......you know all this, so sorry if I sound like I'm telling you things you already know......the brain is such a powerful thing that it can either serve you during life's journey by picking through information and keeping things on an even keel...... or throw you into depths of despair. 

Perhaps one way of dealing with this moment of forthcoming and impending uncertainty, is to marvel at the way science has been able to offer you a diagnosis and potentially a treatment plan. (...because there is one which will be tailored just for you).  This is just part of another life experience which has been presented to you........and........there is no way you can duck out of the way of this one.  If  worrying ever served a useful purpose, then it should be available on prescription!   It's your poor mind kicking and screaming and working through lots of imaginary scenarios.....it can be so exhausting, but, they are just scenarios.  .....  it might be helpful to just reign in your thoughts about what might happen later today, tomorrow, next week.......and take a calmer approach to the present moment......think of the 'present' as a gift.....it is kind of.   Our mind is in the past reliving and trying to untangle things, or in the future.....anticipating what might happen.  I know, I know,....sorry to be stating the blindingly obvious but  you only really have the present moment to contend with.......stay with that thought and you wil not miss the bird song and the other joyful moments that make up your wonderful life......what's that you are having for breakfast?  

Stay strong Auburnamanda and have a brilliant day

virtual hugs.....

ElaZed thank you for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it. You're right, of course.  My rational brain is right there with you. My 3am brain wasn't rational though :laugh: I think it's still sinking in and I'm still holding on to that 1%  Thank you again. It means a lot that you reached out xx

Hi,

I know just how scary that is, having recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and had surgery a fortnight ago. Once I'd got over 48 hours of fear, I decided that the best thing I could do for myself was not to read google and to remember that if my worst fears turned out to be realised, that so much is now known about breast cancer that the treatments are really good and effective.

Everyone is different and google gives you the worst possible scenarios, most of which will be completely irrelevant to your situation, so leave the googling to others! Believe that the doctors know what they are doing. They do this every day of their lives and know that whatever happens you will get through it and that there will be more support than you could ever have imagined.

I also remembered my Mum who had breast cancer twice, once in her early 40's and again in her early 70's. The second time, she had had Parkinsons for 20 years, but nevertheless, as they wheeled her off down to theatre, she was laughing and flirting with the male nurse. I decided that if she could do it, already very debilitated with Parkinsons, then I could do it too. What an inspiration!

Keep busy and as one of the other posts said, try to be in the here and now and marvel at the sunshine and the bird song. I hope that you get the 1% but if not, remember my Mum and know that with a positive attitude and all the support you can get, you will be fine.

Hi,

I was diagnosed a few wks ago with breast cancer and the waiting is so awful! Your brain takes you places you wish it wouldn't. My main bit of advice (that I should try more to follow also) is to STAY OFF Google! My nurse told me it's a swear word to them and I see why. In those first few days waiting for my results, Google freaked me out so much. It's pointless googling also as you have no idea what type you have and every body is different. Also, like you say, you may be ok!! Fingers crossed it isn't the dreaded c, but know that if it is you have us all here for you! And of course your family and friends.

Take care. Sending positive vibes your way x