Hi,

Yes I can fully relate. I'm a mess. It did cross my mind when I first got some symptoms but I thought oh it'll be piles and IBS since I've suffered both in the past. Now every ache and pain I'm convincing myself it's spread. 

The forum is a massive help because even though my husband and family are trying their best to support me they don't fully know how I'm feeling. I joined by chance when I googled and this thread came up so I joined x

Hi, it's a very scary time isn't it and hard to be positive. Try to eat though and keep your strength up. You are not alone! X

To be honest with you I found the colonoscopy the worst as hated the drink and camera and felt really weak after it all have just started to feel better enough that I can eat small amounts of food if you do not feel like eating drink smoothies with bananas and ice cream etc you need your energy also take vitamins xx  

Oh the colonoscopy was so painful for me, I felt every move and the air I think it is was horrible. I had sedation thinking it would be ok and they even gave me some more during the procedure but I was so alert and remember everything. I did mention this and was told it probably didn't work because I was so anxious? I read so many comments that the drink was the worst part it certainly wasn't for me.

My Mum goes for a colonoscopy on Friday I haven't told her how bad it really was it'll only make her more anxious, I just said it wasn't pleasant. They think hers is IBS I wish that was what mine was.

Yes I'm going to try and eat a little more, I'm now scared to go to toilet, I haven't been since my colonoscopy. It's now knowing that there's something definitely there I feel scared to go x

Bless you hope your mum gets on ok  I had sedation and also a top up but felt the discomfort! I do not like to be to far away from the toilet at the minute ! And I only eat very plain food and small amounts xx keep trying to eat a small amount every few hours it will help you I promise xx

Yes I'm going to try. I'm going to go on a short walk with one on my children tomorrow. Just to get some fresh air I'm feeling a bit claustrophobic, plus a little walk will hopefully get my bowels moving. I'm so glad that they're off School at the minute I want to spend every single minute with them, but very worried about our treatment during a pandemic after what I read last time x

Hi, it's a very scary time all round isn't it? All the support we would normally receive from family and friends like hugs chats, meeting up for coffee etc, we aren't allowed to do. I lost my Mum last year and couldn't have a hug or get together afterwards with my siblings, it was just awful! Now I feel that same loss again. Support from loved ones is so important and helps so much. My husband is amazing but he needs support too and he lost his first wife to cancer so I appreciate that this is hard for him too. Hope your Mum goes ok ok on Friday. A very anxious time for you xx

Hi,

Sorry to hear about your Mum. It's horrible isn't it going through the worst time of our lives and we can't see friends and family. My Mum collected me from my colonoscopy and the state I was in she grabbed me for a hug, We'd both had negative covid tests so it was ok, but it's awful that you have to think of that. I lost my Dad to this terrible disease a few years ago so I just knew deep down but before the colonoscopy there was always that glimmer of hope, then my world came crashing down. I keep thinking if only I'd have got screened earlier pre symptoms, now is it too late? The thing what's hurting the most is not seeing my children grow up, they're only young and need both parents x

Hi,

You are really going through it aren't you, I really feel for you. You must be worried for your kids, it's only natural. I am going to be a Grandma in April and all I was focusing on was I hope restrictions are lifted in time for me to be able to go and see the baby. Now all I can think about is am I going to see her grow up., How can life change so much in one day? We have to get through this don't we? Xx