Hi, I'm awaiting a diagnosis for bowel cancer, I backed out of a colonoscopy and gastroscopy early Jan as I thought the whole experience was traumatic, I feel in despair now as I've since had a CT scan and MRI scan, found a nodual in my liver and adrenal gland, I just don't know what to think I'm going out of my mind with worry, since booked another endoscopy as I need to know one way or the other dreading it tbh.

Hi there 

bless you I nearly backed out of the colonoscopy and was made to go by my partner so glad I went , as it wasn't as bad as I thought . What symptoms do you have ? 
have you been told you have bowel cancer ? 
The staff at the hospital are so patient you will be fine . Why are you having an endoscopy when you have had CT and MRI can you not just have a colonoscopy? 
 

take care 

AMANDA 

Hi Amanda,

Thanks for your reply, I have to have an endoscope as they want to take a biopsy as I lost alot of weight, it all started last year with terrific pain in my lower back other than that I felt well at the time but went to docs to check it out as my legs was so weak, they did tests and found I was bleeding from my back passage. Since then I got worse pain in groin back can't breath well pain in chest but some days I feel better than others. Is this cancer ? I haven't a clue which is mainly the reason I joined this chat I just want answers as I feel I'm going mad with worry.

Hi there 

I think the waiting to hear is so difficult as you google everything and your thoughts go into overtime, it's a scary time but we will cope when or if we have to . 
 

let me know how everything goes 

Amanda 

Hi,

I've been searching the web high and low and joined this forum so I could reply to you. I unfortunately are in the same boat, I've just had a colonoscopy which showed I have a tumour on my rectum. I go for a CT on Monday and awaiting an appointment for the MRI then it'll be another wait before I learn my fate. I've convinced myself it's stage 4 and I'm going to die. I can't eat or drink. I'm just so upset I have children and not seeing them grow up is killing me. Sorry to be negative but I've never felt so low in all my life.

How are you doing? x

Hi,

I've been searching the web high and low and joined this forum so I could reply to you. I unfortunately are in the same boat, I've just had a colonoscopy which showed I have a tumour on my rectum. I go for a CT on Monday and awaiting an appointment for the MRI then it'll be another wait before I learn my fate. I've convinced myself it's stage 4 and I'm going to die. I can't eat or drink. I'm just so upset I have children and not seeing them grow up is killing me. Sorry to be negative but I've never felt so low in all my life.

How are you doing? x

Hi there 

sorry to hear you are also going through this as well . You will cope with it all stage by stage and get through all that it throws at you . I also worried and found it hard to sleep but am now taking herbal sleep supplements that have helped . My cancer has spread to liver and utretha and cervix and am going to start chemo soon then they will see about hanging operations later on . We just have to take each day at a time and we will get better but it will be a tough journey ahead xxx take care and let me know how you get on x

Hi,

Sorry to hear it's spread. Did they stage you?

My tumour was ( I overheard during my colonoscopy) approx 4cm I've had it for some time with it being that size. 

I've got a CT scan on Monday do they tell you anything or do you have to wait for the MRI results then a consultant meeting? 

It still feels like a bad dream and it's not real, I just want to wake up from it x

 

Hi there, you have the CT scan and you do not get told anything you then go for the MRI and then wait until they book you to see a consultant and specialist nurse, who the. Explain everything to you. 
I didn't ask what stage it was at I think I forgot. 
keep me postedx

I know exactly how you feel, the panic keeps rearing up and I can't stop crying, you just never expect it to be you do you? This forum helps in that we are not alone at this scarey time x

I haven't cried yet as I am so bloody stubborn and don't think I would stop if I started ! I just keep watching loads of stuff on Netflix to keep my mind of it xxx take care and keep me posted it helps to post stuff on here xx

Hi,

Thanks x I don't want to know which stage I am or if it's a low rate success etc because I don't want to live thinking I'm going to die if you know what I mean. My Nanna had throat cancer obviously she knew what she had but didn't want to be told officially, because many years ago most C's were a death sentence. 

You seem so much more upbeat then me, I wish I could be, I'm a wreck. I've not left the house since my colonoscopy, not got dressed or eaten just a chicken sandwich that my husband made me.

Take care x
 

Hi,

Yes I can fully relate. I'm a mess. It did cross my mind when I first got some symptoms but I thought oh it'll be piles and IBS since I've suffered both in the past. Now every ache and pain I'm convincing myself it's spread. 

The forum is a massive help because even though my husband and family are trying their best to support me they don't fully know how I'm feeling. I joined by chance when I googled and this thread came up so I joined x

Hi, it's a very scary time isn't it and hard to be positive. Try to eat though and keep your strength up. You are not alone! X

To be honest with you I found the colonoscopy the worst as hated the drink and camera and felt really weak after it all have just started to feel better enough that I can eat small amounts of food if you do not feel like eating drink smoothies with bananas and ice cream etc you need your energy also take vitamins xx  

I am so very glad I found this place to be able to talk to others going through the same nightmare! We will get through this it will be tough but we are strong women