Hi 

I am so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I am a few steps behind you, I am awaiting results next Friday and have basically been told to expect cancer. So I am waiting to find out what stages and treatment will be involved. I am 38 and have 2 young boys which is what makes all of this worse as I am more scared how this will all affect them  

Have they given you a date for surgery? X

Hi 

I am so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I am a few steps behind you, I am awaiting results next Friday and have basically been told to expect cancer. So I am waiting to find out what stages and treatment will be involved. I am 38 and have 2 young boys which is what makes all of this worse as I am more scared how this will all affect them  

Have they given you a date for surgery? X

I was given that kind of warning shot diagnosis before diagnosis actually confirmed too - I found that day in clinic worse than results day, because I knew what it would be. Im so sorry, that sounds really rough - I can barely manage my own emotions, without having to consider children and how they cope.

Surgery is in 2 1/2 weeks. Have to essentially isolate from now because of covid, which adds another level of rubbishness - Im a key worker so was hoping to stay at work for as long as possible, but it is what it is I guess. 

I think I feel a bit numb to it all right now. I can't understand how it's all happened. I almost didn't go to the doctors in the first place! 
 

Aw well one good thing is because we are in lockdown anyway you aren't missing out on much. I'm on furlough with my main job so I'm home  just so bored! Get the puzzles out and try to keep busy x

Definitely relate to the numbness. Also was very close to not going to the doctor - I actually went about something else and then just mentioned it kinda off hand. Never thought it would be something serious. Scary to think what couldve been! x