Well Al its wednesday and iam keeping myself out of mischief this morning with a seminar to listen to on animal behaviour and pain should be interesting. 

my sheep sheared dog got a little cold last night - he had had baby cut so i had to cover him in my dressing gown bless him - flet a pange of guilt! 

sun is shinning and for the first time this spring say the blue *** in my garden - they nest in a box yearly or have so hoping they will do again this year. was gorgeous. 

no news yet

was frustrated last night someone used my card and i tried to phone bank took 4 hours to get through for a stupid man to say sorry cannot hear you and put the phone down!!!!! was not amused. trying again this morning. 

stay strong and cheerful xx 

lovely sun is shinning birds are singing brings joy to your heart. Relax and forget the strife and listen to spring where there is new life there is hope for everyone. 

no matter what happens to you there is always someone worse off that means there is always light at the end of the tunnel. 

Al your session is nearly over hope it has gone to plan and you can come back and let me know. here evry day trying to cheer you up with a smile or a word - might be rubbish at it but the thought is there lol. 

pedro has gone to his brothers for the day and night he will have loads of fun so am planning to get into front garden for a short while to get my vitamin concentration up! will be phoning and pestering the doctors next week. also must test blood pressure have not done that yet always put on dreading things lol.

well stay safe and eat well all, 

keep strong and have faith 

Hi elona

Thanks for replying to me ive just read through the pack they sent me so trying to process all the info, the Macmillan nurse is lovely and I'm lucky to have a lovely family just wish I didn't have to put them through this, I'm a very positive and cheerful person but I'm struggling with the feelings of panic that are coming from no were, I'm waiting for the appt now to tell me what stage its at so think ill feel better when I know what I'm dealing with

Alli x

Hi Alli

Take everything at your pace where possible because it is as Al described it to start with a whirlwind and I remember going through it at the start like that too. Try not to think of it as the big C as evryone describes it because that makes it terminal and not everyting is. there is hope for everyone. make sure you talk to all your nearest and dearest so theyknow everything when my husband had to loose his leg a few years ago the worst thing i found was not being told everything and that mad me panic. 

It sounds weird but every step i had i had to treat as an adventure so it didnt sound scary because i also panic and my blood pressure goes sky high lol. Obviously everyone has to do things the way they seem fit and what suits them so we can only ssay this helped us. i would also say another friedn of mine with cancer told me she plans the week ahead with soemthing to look forward to at the end of the week where she often gets the family to take turns cooking with a theme. give yourself as many distractions as possible. Walking my dog was a good destresser since it made me concentrate on walking and whats around me so i could not think about anything else. Unfortunatley i cannot do that at the moment so i plan little jobs around the house to do. 

take care 

here to talk if you want 

stay strong x

hi Al 

well time to relax weeks treatment over hope it has gone well. 

sun is trying to shine through but its gone a bit cold again however, watch this space it is supposed to be really warm monday!! 

mini mafia out again caught the baby on the bird table yesterday i sprayed with appparetn repellent containing mint - natural product obviously rubbish!! hubby tells me they are planning an engagement party tomorrow!! hmm 

actualy had a good day yesterday - see must have been the sun - i started working again on the hedgehog book iam trying to compile. The idea for this is a compilation of all the work done on wild hedgehogs. there are a lot of books but not one that compiles everything together. it will probably take me for ever and never get finished but hey another hobby! it helps when we write courses for interested people. 

might try five minutes in garden again today. 

socrates my african grey is also enjoying this morning he is being really chatty he can have a really good conversation with himself if he likes starting with hello and ending with bye! there maybe a little bit of swearing if the middle depending upon his mood! 

well keep your pecker up ! 

Hi all 

Feeling better today got appt for Monday so will know what's ahead, thank you elona for your reply will find something to look forward to each week today 2 friends I've not seen for ages came to see me which was lovely, will post after appt hope everyone has a good weekend

Alli x

Hi 

hope everyone has had a good weekend and managed to gorget their troubles and strife even if for a short while. 

Al the last week of treatment this week so hoping all ok. 

Alli hope to hear your news after tomorrows meeting hope that goes ok. 

HAve had a little more mental energy today so started to write my hedgehog book chapter and also introduction into pain. I want to research pain in hedgehogs and identification of. This has been done in humans using various scoring methods and also cat, dog, pig and cow but not our little critter. something that has been on back burner like most things. Felt good today doing this. Shame about pockets another two books purchased. eek! I was also tempted by a new job until i sat down and thought actually at moment this would be stupid since i have no energy to do it. hmm sad. 

Pedro has given me the cold shoulder since he stayed with his brother - you would not think animals could would you but boy he has. I did not get any usual jump up grest, wag of tail just the "eye" then a w" well i suppose i may sleep on your bed tonight but only because it is comfortable!" he had also over done it so decided to greet me with vomit and diarrhoea! the joys!!! 

colder than hoped today very disappointing but did manage to go for a walk to the field and back. hoping we do get that lovely weather tomorrow as promised but suspect may well change agin lol at least it is now summer time! time to soak up the sun!! 

well hoping to hear how you are soon Al.

take care 

monday hope all has gone well today. My lump is inflamed today being annoying and still no appointment. 

however, sun is shinning so managed 5 minutes in garden today and also walked pedro to field and back. he is now resting next to me. hubbby informed me that he had a word with the mafia to sweep up their cigarrette butts after their parties lol he comes out with the funniest of things and story lines. i gave up 5 yearrs ago and he has never smoked. 

also found another culprit for the bird seed the biggest and fattest pigeon you could fine could hardly fit onto bird table there was certainly no room for anything else. 

take care remain strong x