Hi,

just as I was starting to come to terms with what was going on we had a setback yesterday. My partners wound from his resection has not healed. The docs think it's over  granulation and not an infection, however he cannot start chemo on Friday.. instead he had a face to face consultation with oncologist next Thursday and a scan on Monday. Scans that he had 5 weeks ago show no spread but I have spent the night panicking that it's spread in the meantime and the delay in the chemo means it won't get treated.

i have to start thinking positively again

L 

Hi Lisa. 

Sorry not writing lately had bone scan Tues. Got got injected with radiation then nurse checked me over with gigercounter to make sure she'd done it right (Thought it's a bit late if it's not), then had to wait in my car for nearly three hours all the waiting rooms were shut. Then had my scan then home. Yesterday morning bit chaos as well early shop then carers and nurse to get a blood test from bren, she couldn't do it so someone else has to come and try again..

So sorry your partner is not getting chemo on the day, hope the scar heals OK. Please keep positive you've done it before you can do it again. Noticed you were up early again. 

Keep well and keep positive. 

Love Billy xxx 

Billy,

that sounds like a really hectic two days with lots of worry involved. I expect the waiting I'm going to have to get used to and find a calm way through it .

thanks for replying billy 

hope all well with your scan

lisa x

Hi Lisa. 

Bren got her blood test this morning, carer's just gone door bell rang nurse for brens blood. Got blood no trouble. All i kneed now is brens water sample, could be interesting.

Got my CT scan date 6th July so not to bad.

Hope you're keeping positive today plenty of housework, and watching your gold fish. 

Love Billy xxx 

Hi Billy how are you?

i hope you've had a weekend of sun and have had a little time to enjoy it. I've not been sleeping well. Really worried about my partners scan . Keep thinking they will find something else and he hasn't even been able to start chemo yet because if his infection. I'm back in the cycle of sheer panic and fear again . Thinking why is he having it do they think something may be going in or is it normal to have one before chemo. 
silly I know 

and I caught a cat trying to catch my fish

hope  you are well 

Lisa 

Hi Lisa most times a scan is so they can check before and after see what difference there is. 

Not been sleeping well either, get off fine then bren keeps shouting she wants something finally got to sleep properly about 1 o'clock then awake, 5 but at least i got some.

If your going to loose your fish I'm definitely coming over tonight definitely don't want the cats leftovers.. Imagine shallow fried with butter and parsley. Yum yum. 

Please keep positive thoughts and actions, just hope he gets rid of the infection soon your both in my thoughts,            hope you haven't got any herons near you.

Love... Billy xxx 

Billy,

no herons just a cat!! I'm sorry to hear you haven't had much sleep either. I always find it hard to get back once I've woken

I will try to stop catastrophing but it's so hard . 
take care 

lisa x

Hi Lisa. 

Sorry not replied. 

Busy busy. Finally got grass cut and cleaned up, weekly shop done and tidy (reasonably) for me.

Please no big words makes my head ache trying to translate understood after a good think. 

Hope you're both managing OK.

Main thing is (what) _. _. _. _. __. _. _. 8 letters.

And its not goldfish. 

Love. Billy xxx 

Hi Lisa. 

Hope things are OK haven't heard from you lately. 

Love Billy xxx