Morning Lisa. X

Hope you slept through tonight and have broken the three o'clock wake up. 

Didn't think before (my brains sometimes slow) hope all that slime from your fish pond you put it on your garden it'll make lovely compost.

A lovely day again hope your both outside but not too much sun. 

Love... Billy... Xxx 

Morning Billy,

yes another lovely day but it's going to change tomorrow apparently. 
set myself a few little things to do today . Not too much. 
going to get the dog out in a minute before it gets too hot 

hope your day isn't too busy, I find that when the sun shines my mood is better . 
good news for sunny yesterday I was so pleased

have a lovely day billy xx

Hi Lisa 

Hope you and hubby are well, you've been very quiet, i hope you've found plenty to do to keep you occupied. 

Love.... Billy xxx 

P.s hope your sleeping properly now. 

Morning Billy,

im ok thanks hope you are too. Hubby had a lot of phone calls had to go for blood test, next week he's got pre chemo stuff then he starts in the 12th. Think it just hit me and the anxiety started again. But I've tried to keep really busy. Had a bad toothache too but de rust still not sure if opening in 8th so that's not good. 
weather really changed very overcast and cold. 
bet you've been busy hope Bren is ok. 
got trip to the tip today via the chemist!! Woop woop

x

habe a lovely day 

Lisa x

Billy ,

im sorry to hear about your results . I'm sending you all of my best wishes and hopes for the next few months. I get the feeling that after a diagnosis it's just a constant waiting game until the next scan next set of tests. Guess I will just have to harden up to it. 
Maybe we will feel less anxious when the lockdown is eased although I'm a bit scared to go out at all.

have a nice day billy

thinking if you x

Hi Lisa.                                                                         Hope you are both as well as can be i know you'll be thinking of things alot. Remember keep positive. 

Finally got good news about bren, psychiatrist says she can come off some of her meds slowly of course especially as she's been on them for over 14 years..

I'm still waiting and plodding on as normal bit of a shock at first but settled down now.

Love Billy xxx 

Hi BILLY,

Hi Billy,

that's such good news about BREN. I'm so pleased for you and her. Glad you can keep positive. It's hard isn't it?

I had a bad day yesterday, was thinking so negatively I was scaring myself. Today much better. Thinking today maybe hubby can be one of the positive statistics.

thats made my day hearing from you though

have a lovely rest of Sunday. Got my first counselling tomorrow

hugs

lisa x

Hi Lisa,

I am so sorry to hear your news, I know completely how you feel. My husband was taken ill at the beginning of lock down he could not hold and food or drink down and his stomach was swollen. We got turned away from a and e told that we should not be there for that and to go home, anyway long storey short he finally got taken in to be told on his own that he had a rare stomach cancer that has spread through the lining and had created fluid in the abdomen. He was given a prognosis of 2-3 months.

thankfully he has health insurance and we are now working with an oncologist to try and prolong his life. He is only 42 years old and we did not expect to hear this, we have been in and out of hospital and I still can not get my head round the fact that he will be taken from us at some point. Watching him suffer is the hardest part and most the time I like you feel numb. 
 

I wish I could help with some advise, but the only thing I can think to do is to try and stay positive because they wrong sometimes. My mum has a brain cancer and at one point was given 2-3 months but five years later she is still here. 
 

X

Hi,

Im so sorry to hear your news. As you've probably read on my post I've really struggled with my partners diagnosis. I've had lovely encouraging words on the site and it has really helped me. 
I think lockdown has increased my anxieties. I'm really hoping that he gets the treatment .

my best wishes to you both

lisa x