Hi Lisa. 

Hopefully you'll be more relaxed now. Maybe even a sleep as sunny suggested it'll do you both good. Maybe even a nice meal, i was going to suggest fish but if your feeling better you might batter me.. Hehe.? 

Good luck with your partners treatment and your relaxing more. 

Billy xx 

Hi Lisa,

No need to go into details.

Best you and hubby can do now is just rest and recharge your emotional batteries and get both of you into the best shape possible to deal with chemo.

You do have a treatment plan and the way that plan will work best is with both of you being as relaxed as possible... try to eat well, sleep well, get some moments of joy

Instead of looking at all the permutations, focus on the plan you have and making your bodies and immune systems strong

Calm as possible 

Visualisation to good not bad places, positive mantras,

So much love and hugs,

Take carexx

Oh Billy,

For some reason the first batter I thought of wasn't fish, but pancake batter...

so I had this ridiculous image of you with a pancake on your head... made me laugh!!

perhaps Lisa will make pancakes sometime x

or a custard pie!

Billy,

hope  you doing ok? Thank you for all your kind words . I'm going to post more stuff but hopefully when more focused and I've sorterd  my head out . 
I had fish for tea!!

not gold tho!!

Have a lovely evening

did you have news today?

hubby gone to bed think he's emotionally drained 

thank you again

Lisa x

Hi hope,

thank you so much for all your lovely words in my dark place. I really needed that. Hubby in bed now 

we will move forward with focus now

did you get results today?

i went for a lovely walk in the sunshine and saw 10 baby ducks o the river it was lovely 

thank you again and thank you to everyone who added such lovely comments.

onwards   and upwards

xx

lisa 

Hi Lisa,

So pleased you managed to get out for a walk.

I haven't seen any baby ducks this year. How lovely that you saw ten! 

I always enjoy watching the baby ducks – and cygnets too when they arrive. 

Good that hubby is getting a rest. 

Pleased that you got dinner done. There really is no expectation on you to cook. Take as many shortcuts as you can over the coming weeks, but if cooking destresses then home-cooked is best and you can maybe freeze some food in advance of chemo.

Please don't rush to post things. It will bring things to the forefront of your mind and after all the emotional turmoil of the past few days allowing your mind and body to take a rest is important. 

Later if it helps you process things, post whatever you feel  appropriate here or by starting a new thread.

I did check to see if my results had come through  -– thank you for asking – phoned GP who told me to call hospital who told me to call GP. Hospital didn't even ask for my hospital number. Will leave it another week at least. 

You do seem much more focussed today than yesterday. As you say now you know what you are up against.

I was up early so will probably sleep early. Sleeping a bit better now. The walks do help.

Hope you too sleep better tonight! 

So many good wishes and hugsxx

Lisa. 

No results yet,. 

I'm a bit like you now waiting,. But not to bothered because i feel OK, over the years I've learnt when something is going wrong with my body. I know it's not perfect but hopefully get results soon. 

Glad your evening went well. 

Keep looking after both you and hubby glad you ate something you getting there slowly don't rush.

Thinking of you, now keep positive for you both.

Hope you sleep properly for a change. 

Billy xx 

Hi Lisa,

Had another better night's sleep and am going to tackle some jobs that I've been dreading/putting off!

Will be thinking of you.

Hoping you slept some.

Is the garden centre an option for today?

Whatever you choose to do I hope that you find some moments of joy like those baby ducklings yesterday.

Take care and hugsxx

Morning,

im glad you slept well. I thought I would but awake st 3am!!

jobs that I've out are not getting done ! I'm going to walk the dog and relax. Hubby got to go to doctors for wound check and then I'm going to sit in the garden and do nada 

 At least we got the nice weather

over the weekend I'm going to look up stuff to help

hubby build up for his chemo , get him in the best possible state for it

msybe a bit more walking for him too

have a lovely day 

Lisa