Hello lisa,

                  right,lets focus on locally advanced, locally advanced is spread to local neighbouring lymph nodes from the site of the colon tumour which equals the staging number of n2, That is to say the cancer cells have only spread  (advanced, gone forward ,moved to ) from the tumour into lymph nodes that are( local,adjoining, nearby ) close to it                                                                                         

It does not nean advanced in the sense of no return,off you trot, go and meet the man with a sickle over his shoulder. Sorry but l am really aiming for clarity and sensing that you are not picking up on what people on the posting are trying to impart to you,so l hope this does not cause offence,

                                 David

Hi Lisa,

I know you are not stupid.

You are going through a difficult time and I understand the impact of the past trauma.

It is really good you have booked yourself a session to help deal with that. It is not easy for you. 

I guess we're all going to have to be a bit boring and go on repeat here because locally advanced really isn't the same as advanced cancer.

Maybe if you see that TNM stuff in terms of a line/ruler so you go from T to N to M and as David pointed out you didn't get to the end of the N let alone getting as far as M that will help you.

So it is NOT the worst scenario!!

So many hugsxxx

And brilliant on you for doing that floor!

Hi Lisa,

Consider the following:

reindeer      deer rein

hot dog       dog hot

fishpond     pond fish

Maybe it will help remind you that you are making big error in looking just at the word advanced and not what it sits alongside or where.

And while I might if absolutely starving eat some pond fish I would never ever eat a fishpond or a dog.

Trying to make you laugh. Probably doing a bad job of it. Humour is not my strong point.

xxxx

Thank you . I know I'm being silly . 
just had some lovely flowers delivered from friends 

thars cheered me up no end x

David,

it doesn't cause offence at all. It's what I need clarity 

always half empty in my world I feel so awful when do many people are in our position and I just can't see clearly through I am trying 

thanks

lisa 

Lisa nobody on the forum thinks your stupid don't worry about that your just very stressed over something you have no control over. I understand because years ago i was having problems with being sick and passing out with no warning, seen Dr regularly couldn't find anything wrong apart from blood tests were all over the place i had three tests same over three days all came back different. ECG's u name it bren started just like you i did finish up in hospital going into a coma. Then found i had to keep taking meds for the rest of my life or i go into a coma and die. Bren took ages to except i was OK and not going to drop dead. But it was helpful really when i got cancer she excepted it easier. Still not nice but easier.

If I'm talking about myself and bren to much please tell me off.. 

Billy xx 

Oh I'm so pleased!

Friends did that for me when I had my surgery recently and it gave me such a lift.

People are there for you.

xx

Thank you all. I'm trying to get perspective and just wait until Thursday. 
thank you all for being so so patient.. thank you for explaining things to me I was too scared to look up and the difference between locally adavanced and advanced. T4n2 etc etc 

it's lovely to think that people are caring about me 

thank you again x

Hi everyone. I had a good read of all the messages this afternoon sitting in the garden with other half and thought no more sending myself mad. 
we will find out all Thursday . As they say prepared for the worst hoping for the best.

made a nice dinner billy, not fish and even put some decent clothes on. It may not last but I'm trying 

I hope you are all doing well this lovely sunny evening 

tomorrow I may bravely wander to garden Center to buy a nice flower .

thank you all again

lisa x