Hello Jacquie60 and welcome to the forum. 
I'm sure that some of the members will pop by shortly to say Hello! and offer their words of support but I wanted to post to say that what you're feeling is absolutely normal. Even the most positive of people will have wobbly moments or wobbly days. 
We are in such uncertain times that the normal worries and concerns around being given a cancer diganosis are magnified so please try and remember to be extra gentle with yourself when you are feeling low. 

You might find on these kind of days that talking to one of our nurses helps. Sometimes having someone outside of your family or circle of friends to talk to without the worry of upsetting them can be of great value. You can call them on 0808 800 4040 and they're available Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm. 

It's great to hear that your experience with the hospital has been so good up until this point. I'm sure that they will aim to get your next appointment done as soon as is safe and hopefully this won't be too long. 
Keep in touch with us here Jacquie. I know that the community will do their best to support you. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator

Hi Jacqui

First of all, yes, it's perfectly normal to feel low and teary, it's such a worrying time anyway, and now with Covid19 on top. Try not to feel guilty, your family and friends love you and will want to support you.

I was diagnosed with lung cancer in November last year, I was 48 and had never smoked, it came as a massive shock. I had a Lobectomy in December and they removed half my left lung and the 4.8cm tumour. Not sure if you know yet if the plan for you is surgery but if you have any questions at all that I can help with please feel free to ask me.

Take care

Ruth x

Thank you Ruth. Xxx

Hi Jacquie, so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I posted my story of IDC Breast Cancer under RuthieH17 which I hope will offer most some encouragement. I wasn't phased by my journey as I had spent the last 25 years expecting it after my mother was diagnosed in her forties. There was almost a relief when it actually hit.

Absolutely and of course you will have wobbles, it is normal. Don't tell anyone but I had a really snotty and blubbering wobble after driving back from my MRI (scarring siren wailing tin can experience)...that is what got me !

I wish you well and hope you keep the fighting spirit "kick ***" attitude to beat this because you can. Science in Oncology is amazing today and offers so many more treatment options, you got this !!! xx

Hi Jacqui, your comments resonated with me. It feels wrong somehow to feel guilty for giving my family this worry. But I am so used to living my life for others, that I am having trouble thinking so much of myself.

I am 48, live with my daughter 21, got ovarian cancer diagnosis, stage3, 1 month ago. Still waiting for 1st consultation with oncologist and worrying that the delay due to corona is leaving the cancer to grow.

Family is so important that it is hard to have given them this news with so much uncertainty. The thought that I will leave them to cope during my treatment,  and leave them if I die, is hard to cope with.

I too am usually positive and strong, I am busy in life, in control, self sufficient. So this is a blow, and down-days are hard where old demons of self doubt and low self esteem creep back and bite me.

So I would say to you to take all the support you are offered, be kind to yourself and remember that the people who support you ; they want to and they feel better for it, supporting you will help them to cope.

Best wishes,  Hayley