what can i say  we all belong to a forum that people dont want to join but im happy because it means there are lots of us to vent to and find out how everyones doing and have loads of maral support ,

exactly 1 week ago my life changed you go to the clinic hoping for the best but deep down you know something is up straight away your hoping that its just the doctor in there and he hasnt got a nurse with him coz then you know its not good news and your gut feeling was right but as soon as you walk in and there she is already looking at you with sorry eyes ,you sit down ready to be told the worst news ever then at first you hear nothing you see his lips move but hear nothing so you ask him to repeat it ,

im sorry ms figgins you have grade 2 invaisive ductal cancer , but its good news one of our tests has come back and we can give you hormone tablets to stop it getting bigger 

erm great im numb even though i was expecting it   you never actually expect the words 

but unfortunatly you have busy boobs and were worried about your other one because of dark patches on it were waiting for some more tests and you should hear something within 3 weeks ,, 3 friggging weeks  how am i meant to wait for 3 weeks knowing i have cancer  i want it out of me   i want things to kill it    this wait is doing me in sorry to go on and on but im gona go mad if i dont   

thanks for listenng