Hi

Nope You are not crazy, it's perfectly natural to think the way you are thinking. I did the same when I was diagnosed, I had convinced myself that as well as bc I had stomach, liver and bowel cancer and it was definitely in my bones as my ribs were hurting. I was sent for numerous scans and it turned out it hadn't spread to those areas and instantly my aches and pains disappeared.

easy to say but try to deal with the facts you know about at that time rather than thinking what ifs. Once you have your treatment plan everything will settle down. I'm writing this from

hospital having had a mastectomy and reconstruction, I also had chemotherapy.

its not a walk in the park but its

doable.

im here if you need a chat.

wl

Hi. You are feeling just the same as me . 

I was told last Thursday it was cancer . 4 biopsies from 2 areas in the breast and 2 from a lymph node. I am back on Wednesday to discuss the biopsies/ treatment. The consultant has already asked for a CT scan which he said probably won’t come through before our next appt but it puts us a week ahead IYKWIM. 

I also go through times of being convinced it’s in my whole body, pains in my chest , feeling sick, no appetite and random aches and pains. 

Keeping busy takes my mind of it and keep telling myself not to worry until I am told there is something else to worry about . 

The other thing I’m finding odd is I haven’t cried yet.. I normally cry at the drop of a hat !! ( didn’t even cry at Coronation Street .. my husband wasn’t happy I even watched it) 

its just the waiting to find out that’s so hard but doesn’t mean we are crazy .. 

we are all here for each other 

x x x

Thanks Woolly, I hope you're feeling ok after your surgery.  Thank you for the reassurance.   I'm doing ok with the BC diagnosis because i know avout it, my brain last night was in overdrive thinking i should make a load more doctors appointments and try and get referrals for testing everything else. 

I feel a little better today, but dreading spending the day with the in-laws as, whilst it's lovely that they're concerned and I'm so grateful for a supportive extended family, i don't want to talk about it all again! 

All the best for the rest of your recovery x

Thanks Marjan.

I'll mention my paranoia to the breast cancer nurse next time I'm there. I think i should try and concentrate on one thing at a time rather than focussing on everything else that might be wrong. 

I am sp pleased your mum's scans showed no further spread, what a relief to know!

Embop x

Janey i think we are at similar stages in our journey.  I had the reults of my biopsy last weds and I'm waiting on my appointments for micobubble something and contrast something else. 

I haven't cried yet either.  I've  been saying to people "it is what it is" (i hate that 'Love Island' phrase, but i can't think of a better one right now!) and i basically feel like it's happened, I'll get treated, then hopefully i won't have it any more and can carry on with my life.  If only i didn't have this nagging feeling that something else might be going on! 

Hope all goes ok on Weds x