No wonder you are struggling. Your diagnosis is still very early and you have every right to be feeling fear, panic, shock etc. Don't feel bad about that, it's only natural. I used to feel like such a fraud when people told me I was brave, because I didn't feel brave, I was just going through the treatment my medical team said I needed to treat the cancer. I'm certain they won't have missed anything in the scan, but for peace of mind you could contact the breast care nurse and ask.  I also remember the fear over every ache and pain, convinced it was a sign the cancer was spreading. That's completely normal too.  It's good you are being strong for everyone at home, but be very kind to yourself, and also remember that looking after you might help them cope better. This is the worst time,and it will get better, even if you get the diagnosis you don't want, because once the treatment starts it is easier to cope. Good luck, take care of yourself, and I'm thinking of you.

Thank you for your support.

It feels so lonely because I darent really talk about the things I am worried about as it will upset people. 

I think the waiting is definitely hard because i am thinking worst case scenario so once  i know what i am dealing with properly i can at least come to terms with it a bit better. 

I feel so selfish as i know there are lots of people on here more poorly than me but cancer is one of those things you dont prepare for because you always hope it wont happen 

Am sure it will get easier but your kind words are appreciated x