No wonder you are struggling. Your diagnosis is still very early and you have every right to be feeling fear, panic, shock etc. Don't feel bad about that, it's only natural. I used to feel like such a fraud when people told me I was brave, because I didn't feel brave, I was just going through the treatment my medical team said I needed to treat the cancer. I'm certain they won't have missed anything in the scan, but for peace of mind you could contact the breast care nurse and ask.  I also remember the fear over every ache and pain, convinced it was a sign the cancer was spreading. That's completely normal too.  It's good you are being strong for everyone at home, but be very kind to yourself, and also remember that looking after you might help them cope better. This is the worst time,and it will get better, even if you get the diagnosis you don't want, because once the treatment starts it is easier to cope. Good luck, take care of yourself, and I'm thinking of you.

Please don't feel selfish! Being told you have cancer is probably one of the most frightening things you can be told. Even though you haven't had it confirmed there are still medical professionals talking about you and cancer in the same sentence, and it feels very surreal. I remember feeling so alone too, although I was surrounded by support, because I didn't want to share my deepest fears in case it hurt them more. That's why this forum is such a great place to be. We understand your fear and shock, and have have been where you are. You can talk out your fears here.  I will keep my fingers crossed you hear good news, but even if you don't, you will be able to get through this. It is very doable, and you will discover you are stronger than you thought xx